Secret Garden

      I'm going to have another birthday days later. One by one, year by year.

      Retrospect to what I had vowed, they were: oh, wishes to get a high mark on exams from now on; wishes I will entrance a good university; wishes to be happay everyday; wishes healthy to my father and mother and brother and grandparents. But now I wish to come home and get together with them. Or if possible, I don't want to be one year older.

       One of my friends is practicing in hospital now. He's happy to see a new birth and told me that being a mother is really marvellous but also painful. It was rally a blooded scene that he would never forgot. Just as the old saying goes: My birthday is also called mother's suffering day. But she always forgets that it was her painful day but your birthday.

       A little shy, I've never said to my parents that " I love you ", but "Dady and mommy, I really really love you very very very much"

         Oh,my god! What's wrong with the slide fastener of my satchel? When I got off the bus, I found my bag had half-opend. Some uncomfortable feeling occured to me, soonest I found out that my wallet had gone.But it was difficult for me to believe it at that time, my mind went blank. I even did not have any feeling on that some one were pilferring my wallet which was hidden in my bag! Wait! That meant student's card,bank card,ID,money,keys to the domiroty, all lost! Oh! What a hell! This hateful thief!

          Quickly,I came back to myself,realized that I had to do something to remending it. First, I called the bank service and noticed them my bank card had lost. Then, I phoned the police station and telled them that my ID card was theieved and how to renew another one. Last, the student office was acknowledge that I had to make a new student card. And the money, I thought no one would give them back to me.

          I wished that the thief could be stamache when he used my money to buy something eat, or the machandizes which he used to buy would be unqualified.

       At the beginning of this short story,the old horse dealer, died and left nothing but debt and threatening to his four children.The three  brothers managed to find a way out for themselves but none of them would like to take care of their little sister,Mable. Later,the depressed girl committed suicide in a pond but was saved by Dr.Ferguson,which drew the two youth into a romance love together.      

        At first, I think Mable took her advantage of the situation by expressing her love and convinding Jack that he loved her as well, in order to obtain the comfortable lifestyle that she once lived. But with the development of the story, you will have another view to see that it was the mystirious of love between the two dramatist personae. First of all, Mable wished to be glorified like her mother was becuase that she was ashamed of her poverty and no longer wanted to face the townspeople. The young doctor, Jack Ferguson, who was a friend of Mable's brother Fred, "as a matter of fact, it excited him, the contact with the rough,strongly-feeling people was a stimulant applied direct to his nerves". We would suggest that Mable's suicide was not only an instinct of saving others as a doctor but also a stimulation of the love of the story. Then,after resuscitating Mable,Jack brought her back to the deserted house, striped off her wet and stinking clothes, and wrapped her in blankets, she felt her responsible to ask whether he loved her and she thought that he must in love with her. But the fact was Jack felt free to undress Mable since he was a doctor and he never looked her more than two eyes before. When she lunged toward him and clutched his legs, murmured "You love me. I know you love me, I know." This was embarrasingly silly, yet inexplicably, he kissed her. At that moment, Jack felt some love with her,suddenly he recognized his obligation towards her. Last, she recognized with horror that he did not love her at all. But Jack tole her"I want you , I want to marry you, we'er going to be married, quickly, quickly---tomorrow if I can." Jack, the country doctor whose life up to this moment had been full of sunlight and promise, had to quickly marry the horse-dealer's daughter so he would not have time for common sense to change his mind.

       It begins with a peace scene:sunny morning,full-summer day,flowers blossomed profusely,the grass was richly green. An easy day which school was recently over for the summer, children gathered together for a game. The lottery was hold in a dance squre ,like a teen club, a Halloween program. Children assembled first,soon the men began to gather,and women appeared to stand by their husband.Then the conductors of the lottey---Mr.Summer ans Mr.Grave came at last.It seemed to be an important game that all the villagers of the country would have to join in. The story was ended withe the death of the winner---Mrs.Hutchinason, who was later for the lottery.You would hardly imagine that they were organized elaborately to describe an cruel story.

        In my opinion,there are some other ironic meaning of the pilots in the story.First,the name of Summer would suggest sunshine and bright but he killed Mr.Hutchinson indirectly.Mr.Grave's name indicated a death. Old man Mr.Warner and the black box can be seen as the old and punk literal tradition of the lottery.Second ,its real indication was focused on the opposite facial of the story.For one thing ,it wasn't the winner but the loser rewarded to die,then the cruel and horrible thing was based on a happy and easy scene.For another,Mrs.Huchinson was the last person who appeared with a joking saying to others"Clean forgot what day it was",and unfortunately chosen to be the winner.Last but not the least,Mrs.Hutchinson died in a summer and bright day---the most terrible thing happened under the sun.Third,it was because of the evil of the human nature but not the old tradition to keep the tragedy going again and again.For example ,the old man Mr.Warner who had seen this horrible tradition for 77 times and innovated the traditional ritual ,but he never stand out to stop this the tradition.We can seen that Mr.Warner wasn't only as old as the tradition but also as cruel as it by his words:"Although the villagers had forgotten the ritual and lost the original black box,they still remembered to use the stones."The villagers just wanted to finish the lottery quickly,but never thought of that they were killing a life who had lived with them in the same village for years,besides the wife of the husband or the mother of the children.Even Mrs.Hutchinson herself screamed to others"It isn't fair,it isn't right",maybe she thought that it was someone else should dia,who cared whether it would be her husband or one of her children.

        I even impossible to have my eyes closed last night, because I was going to have a job interview the next day.However my friends told me to relax, it was hard to conque.

        It all begins with a tragedy.My first interview came over to me few days ago.The first run was to introduce yourself on the platform before all of competetors and HRs. I think I am shier than others and that speaking in front of a lot of people is really a pain to die.My heart bite and my mind was blank.With a trembling voice,I ended up my show,I even didn't know how it ended.And I was eliminated in the firsr run,undoubtflly.Shadow doesn't wash away when days goes by.

        Today,tragedy again! I really don't know how to do, help!