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MY Inhumanity

devindernagpal — Sun, 19 Jul 2009 01:51:57 GMT

MY Inhumanity

Friends,

I feel at big loss,I lost right to contact an worthy, generous, & talented friend because I hurt her feelings.

She enlighted my path of life by her bold,clear,truthful & religious messgas but I feel that I made an hole in the utansil I ate or like killed the hen that gave an egg of gold every day in greediness of having all the eggs at once.

I met with the very common fate of friendship that happens between a male & a female.

The most common fate is that when both are in search of a partner & they fall in love & friendship turns into a love affair.

& 2nd is that they don't find any understanding & get separated & friendship is lost. or they try to use each other for their puposes & decive each other & friendship turns into a relation of eneminess.

I have come to realize that friendship may continue only in the people of oppositte sexes when both have a state of mind of 'beyond sex' which is easy foe a woman but difficult for a man because of the existential behaviour, as woman's role is pasive in sexual bhaviour & man's sexual behviour is aggressive.

But rare are the woman who are aware of this fact & they keep love & sex away from their syllabus but most the women become prey of love & hate & hence friendship meet the common fate.

But to continiue friendlyness man should be able to think beyond sex & friendship ends when sex or love comes inbetween & unfrtunatly I fall in that catgory & lost the most preciuos friendship who gave a lot of clearities.

Here I feel missing religion in my life,had I met real religion & gone beyond sex just by decision instead of travelling so long & gaining nothing.I feel envoy to Hakimi,Blink,gkissberth & Nupogodi.

But me is me & I can't change my place,what i can do is learn but I have paid the highest price of learning & shall never be able to coponsate that friendship.It's a permanent loss.

It could the toughest heat treatment needed for purification,any way I respect & welcome both but I am joyful that I got more clearity & came more near to the TRUTH.

Fulfilled Aspiraions

devindernagpal — Sat, 18 Jul 2009 01:04:25 GMT

Fulfilled Aspiraions

Friends,

I wanted to realize the facts of life by myself & live according to them.

& while travelling upon the path of a researcher I felt that I have realized something great & different ,which looked to me something big,so I joined Ebaby to share & teach people what I have learned.I participated in many debates & shared views with learned friends.

I found that Ebaby is a good site of real people who really wish to share have capacity to enter debate,I find most of the friends are sincere,intelligent, tolerant & nice.

While sharing with my friends I lost my grounds many times.I feel that I wanted to enlight my house by the light discoered by myself,made by myself,bulb to be made by myself & all the apparatus needed to create by myself & then light the house.

While sharing with my friends I found that I was creating a hell around myself,there was no need to do all the exercises which I was doing. There was a very simple way to use the light created by Einestine & apparatus needed was available in the market at very low prices.

There was no need to search God inside & there was a simple way to follow the proved facts already experimented & realized, provided by the religous scriptures.

I couldn't find my roots in hindu & christian scriptures, but I could find them in Quran.I found the principles very close to my feelings.

After sharing a lot with my friends I have changed my style of thinking ,working & planning.I have dropped the plan to renounce the family & business & live a life of wanderer.

Now I feel comfortable & at peace with myself & what I have around myself.

I am thankful To Allah for blessing ne with the facts.Now I feel myself a pupil rather than a teacher.

There is nothing to celebrate & nothing to be sad,Life is very simple & I would like to enjoy it in very simple way.I have found that I am not different from other people nor I am superior to others,but I am common as others are.... making mistakes everyday.

I am not going to bring a turmoil in my life by changing the religion but wanted to keep the feelings inside & live & feel the way I like.

I wish to thank all my ebaby friends (who are learned talented) who have reflected my face to me.

Dev

I wish to grow

devindernagpal — Fri, 09 Jan 2009 02:03:18 GMT

I wish to grow

Friends,

I am amazed by the insight I have received during the discussions, 'How can we grow in love'.

I have come to understand that after we born , our life grows by every moment.

We always have an circle of people around us, with which we are always concerned.We get connected with the circle arond us by an unseen bond called 'LOVE'.

As we grow by every moment our circle changes.

but we are unaware of the change, because the process of change is very slow but contineous.As we are connected with the circle around us by the bond of love, we grow in love too & get connected with new circle grow by every moment.

As we have many dimensions of circles, hence many dimensions of love too. But the 'BEING' inside of us is one.& we are the centre of our life & of our world too.

As we grow in love, we grow incirle, we grow in being.

Hence we enter in every circle with more experience, more grown up.

As seeds of plants has the potentiality to grow, earth, water pushs th seed to grow, light & sun pulls the seed to gorw, seed can become a alive 'TREE'.

I too wish to grow .

But physically we have limits to grow, hence I wish to grow beyond limits. so existence has provided us with 'spirit & being' to grow, I wish to grow love & it's fragnance & reach each & every corner of the universe.

The Power of Silence

devindernagpal — Sat, 10 Nov 2007 14:55:48 GMT

The Power of Silence

Friends,

Most of us feels our life as hard & tough one..We are always under this or that strain..by some how I came to know an teqnique,which I can say"as the power of silence"...I want to share with all of my friends here.

I have come to know about the different layers of silence...the first layer of silence is the silence of speech...we all are familiar with it...it's very easy to understand....just don.t speak...practice for a few hours or minutes & you will know the beauty of it..during this pracice we just don't speak but other activties of expression remains as they are...

A little next is when we stop expressing our selves through signs...just we don't express in any way...
action & reactions continue in our mind but we just don't expresss them..

Next layer of silence is when we stop reacting...we just close ourself from outside world what ever is happening we let that happen,we just not bother about any thing but feelings remain therebut we just don't react them .

next layer of silence is where we stop feeling the feelings,it's difficultto touch this layer directly,we need some support & the best & existential support we can take is of breathing which is happening contineously by itself....we just become aware of breathing ,we just feel the breathing happening by itself....& absorb our selfin it..by & by as we absorb in it...some thing else happens whenby chance we jump to another layer of silence ,that is the silence of being....of isness..

just travell through this journey& know the ecstacy of our being, which will refresh you & you will start enjoying life..

Life is boring just because we don't live it.Just be a little watchful of the breatheing process & you will realise the point where life exists& you will start clebrating it.

In case you have some question to ask you are welcome...

Devinder Nagpal

at devindernagpal@hotmail.com

To find a soul mate.........

devindernagpal — Sat, 10 Nov 2007 14:27:39 GMT

To find a soul mate.........

Frinds,

It 's really verry difficult to find soulmate in our life,we are always in search of a real, trustworthy friend or we can call it soulmate, upon him we may rely totally......

I feel myself lucky.I don't have words to say about the relation but it was a very nice experience,we had.

Once our sex lasted for 4-5 hours & there was experienced complete calmness & oneness....It was a different & somewhat deep experience,which I can share with any person who is interested in knowing it..

It is not pssible to discuss due some technical reasons but all are welcome...you can meet me at

devindernagpal@hotmail.com

by....Devinder Nagpal

Let's clebrate

devindernagpal — Mon, 29 Oct 2007 01:38:34 GMT

Let's clebrate

Dears,We are human beings....& most of us has forgotton the gift to celebrate,share,laugh...and a lot to enjoy....It,s an open call to all human beings to share every beautiful,wonderful content that is in your memory,all are welcome...we are very lucky to to have this type of group of people who are very creative....I congratulate all of you...& beg to pour something you enjoy yourself alone.....Thanks a lot & GOOD LUCK

What's your name?

devindernagpal — Mon, 22 Oct 2007 15:06:38 GMT

What's your name?

What's your real name? The question looks lke a puzzle,everybody has some name try to find your real name.

Although we have a name but we are beyond name, we are 'we' & we don't know our self.Can our name help us to find our real 'self ?

We can't expresss our real 'self'even by expressing our thoughts & explanations we give.

We have only our being to share, whom we don't know, so let's find our being first.

Try to think in english language,all thoughts should come in english & try to express in english.

so we shall learn english well.