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My Childhood!

CaN I CrY — Sat, 30 Aug 2008 16:45:50 GMT

My Childhood!

I was born in a terrible dark night..:) My dad didn't wanted me born.. :) He didn't want me..But my mom wanted too much..So gave birth me! :)

Ohh Dawn..If I wasn't born, now i would be in Heaven! :))

I used to cry too much.. So my parents supposed that I am a idiot, insane :) then i learned reading, writting, letters, and Math with myself.. So proved that I am not an insane :D:D

Anway..

I spent most of my childhod near my grandmother in a great beautiful and big farm (about 7 months in a year) .. My parents were busy with their job. I didn't like travel with them city by city...So they left me near my grandparents..

I said ''Mother'' to my real mother after I was about 7-8.. I used to say ''Mother'' to my grandmother. ( and i still say Mother to my grandmother)

She was an Armenian..She knows a lot of languages..

Turkish, Kurdish, Armenian, Persian, Russian and Hebrew language... (but I have never heart a Turkish word from her mouth) She genereally used to talk in Kurdish!

I was a brave and naughy kid. REally I didn't afraid of dead..I was jumping from more than 4-5 meters.. How poor my legs :) I was swiming in a small pool, always... climbing trees... walking in tombs... I loved taking a knife near me... I cut many times my fingers.. :) Still I have a sign on my big finger..

I didn't have girl friend... I was loving boys..Haha :) Viva Boys! I swam naked with boys in pool... :) Haha they are naked too :) (ohh don't be angry with me, I was a kid)

My hairs genereally were short as a boy.. also terrible yellow.. (Dawn I hate being a blonde)

Hahaa.... Also i was loving eating soil..REally... :) Still I love soil..And eat it in a clean place... There was an important tomb there.. A man's tomb.. He was an important person for ISLAM.. Ppl were praying and reading Kuran near his tomb... :D:D I was loving being near him too... but not for pray!!! >> To eat soil of his tomb... Ohh I am terrible! :) To eat soils of tomb are terrible.. :) Ohh but so delicious! :) now you can understand why I love deaths so much :)

Anway.. I started to live with my parents after started school... That year I left my grandparents..So parents came and took me near them.. We were in our car.. My grandparents home was far from our real home.. (18-20 hours with car) When we were going to our home, we had a terrible bad accident..

A big truck hit us..

Nothing happened to me.. :) I was lucky.. but my parents weren't as lucky as me..they stayed about more than 1 month at hospital.. But Thanks to ALlah, they are still in life! :) :))))

Anyway... I would start the school that year..But after this accident my parents didn't let it...

But i already knew reading and writting..And a lot of things of Math! :)So i cried, cried, cried :))

The one day, my aunt registereed me at school..But my parents didn't knew it..:) It was a suprise for them :)

Then years went fastly.... So fastly...!

Anyway..then i started to study, grow up, learn :)

Getting bad, getting lazy, getting afraid of life.... Getting stupid and selfish!

But i wasn't so when i was a kid!!!!!

Now i am in E-baby and so feel so lucky to be here :D I love you e-baby... I love all my friends.. Everyone has diffirent means for me..they are my colour!

Muackss for all you..I didn't leave you..Just I have to be far a bit from here :D:D

I love you..I love you! :)

The pics of my 2.country, Indonesia :)

CaN I CrY — Sat, 02 Aug 2008 17:08:28 GMT

The pics of my 2.country, Indonesia :)

Hi every.. Ohooo I found some pics about Indonesia.. Ohh I really want to travel there..

I can live there too.. :) My darling, Indonesia :)

Hmm, After months I stated to leanr Indonesian language with Vicky (digitalmonkey). But now, he is working so much..So can't be online always.. :) So i can't see ourself here so often..

I really missed my firend Vicky and of course Indonesia :)

Hmm... This blog will be full of pics. I couldn't find very information about pics.. :) now I just can show them to you.. But after years, Inshallah i will be able to travel there, and show my real pics in Indonesia :)

I love you Indonesia... If you want, I can be ur 2. citizen!

It is map of Indonesia.. Unfortunely it is too far from my country, Turkey.. Ohh :((

How a great beach :)

Ohh...Don't try to dream the Paradise... It is here.. In Indonesia :)

Ohh... Some years ago, Tsunami..Ohh I remember this time.. In all Turkish TVs there was just 1. news.. It was about Indonesia, about Dawn Tsunami..! :((

Who doesn't want live here :S:S

Indonesia has a lot of volcano :S:S ohh dangerous

Here is Bali Island in Indoenesia :)

A cooL pool in there :)

Ahaa...Indonesian girls :) Ommm beautiful :)

Green & Blue... and a bit white :=)))

Oww oww owww... Wanna steal them :) look like so delicious

Look, women..Hmm so cute and hardworker.. I love you!

Rice paddies in Indonesia :)

Traditional masks :)

Hey...Is there anyone there? :)

They use these vehicles on rivers.. :)

It is in Java Island.. Ohh I couldn't choose an island in Indonesia...They are most beautiful than themself :)) ohoo eveyone is so good :)

I watched a documentary about Indonesian forests..And there were a lot of monkey into forests :)

And here is Borneo island..İt is one of the biggest island in the World! Ohh so big, so beautifuli so green.. :)

I don't know why i love Indoneisan ppl so much.. :)

gorils :)

Also there are very dangerous snakes there...

Let me go with them..

There are a lot of rivers in this island..

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My blog finished here.. :) I don't know why..But really I love these pll and this country.. They are so warm! :) so cute..So friendly..

I always say at home that I love Indonesian ppl.. And My family bored this sentence :D

Ohoo..Now they say > Let's marry with an Indonesian.. And Let us rest from you... Ohoo Our ears are aching becasue of you.. You always repeat it..Let's travel and live there forever :)

Ohooo... :) But i really wanna visit there... Ohhh

I love you Indonesia...

Aku Kangen kamu...

Aku Kangen Indonesia :))

Are you still waiting?

CaN I CrY — Thu, 03 Jul 2008 14:16:31 GMT

Are you still waiting?

Hmm.. LAst week I decided make an important thing in my future! But it is not very definite now.

But believe me, This idea became one of my best goals, dreams...

I am not a kid. So i can see everything. My paretn always say that I thinkings grew up so fastly...

I was a lucky baby, lucky kid, lucky teenager.

But believe me, I have never deserved them completely! I think, I am an ordianary girl, an ordinary person...

There are a lot of people who deserve them more than me! Who I am... :S

Who did give me luck for nothing... I am nothing... I am nothing.

The World is revolving... The stars are shining or sometimes sliding..... This cosmos always repeating everything...

Hey,,,, Are you same with this cosmos??

Do u always wait ? Do u always ignore?

Please DON'T!

This World has to change! This life has to change! Don't sleep..

Look your possessions, riches, beauties,belongings... Then say me true? Do you deserve them more than others?

More than this poor babies?

Heyy... I am confessing.... > I don't deserve!

You??

Anyway.. Now let me share my new dream!

I decide to adopt a black baby! Hmm I haven't decide yet from which country... Hmm Maybe Indonesian.. Becasue I wanna travel there. So i can find a cute n black baby for myself..!

But if I marry,My husband should admit.. :S:S

Hey... I promise to Allah (God) I won't part this baby from my real babies!

I promise, with my all heart!

:D:D

Did u like my dream? :) LEt's you, too, give a new life to these babies..

They really deserve a new life!

Don't you think so?

Dawn!!

CaN I CrY — Mon, 30 Jun 2008 17:53:49 GMT

Dawn!!

There are some Turkish members here!

N they always send me some bad words,some bad swears, some bad insults with mails!!

Please, My Turkish friends, my sibling, my lifes, my powers, my lovers.... Listen me!

Don't say me again >You're terrorist!

I am not terrorist!

Can I go on , or Did u understand?

___

Some brats n some bastards wrote me > If i find you i will fuck you

OK honey I am waiting for be found

If you can't find me; Please fuck urself

i am not terrorist!

Trabzon with greenness !!

CaN I CrY — Sun, 22 Jun 2008 17:13:41 GMT

Trabzon with greenness !!

Hi, friends!

I wanna introduce a city of Turkey as my other blogs!

It is TRABZON.. A city in Turkey's north.

I have never travelled there. So i don't have much information to write :D:D

Also the letters can't explain it completely.. So Let's see with ur own eyes! :D:D

It is Uzungöl ( Long Lake)

look at this nice mosque! :D:D

This city is near Karadeniz (Black Sea) There is a sea between Trabzon n Russia..

Trabzon is famous with fish :D

Fishing is a good way to earn money for them.. :D

Fish > The way of living :D

Here is a monastery > We call it Sürmene Manastırı!

It has built on too big n high hills :D

Hahaa Can u climb here? :D:D

Oww I can't :D

They are Trabzon's houses! They are maden from wooden. Because all seasons are rainy there. :D

The most famous tea is grown in Trabzon n Rize ( a city of Turkey) they are 2 city near each other.

Growing or raising tea is another way to earn money for them

Their women are so powerfull as men! :D to work never tires them

It is traditional Trabzon clothers for women :D

Girls in Trabzon are so beautiful... They look like Russian girls :D

Have blue eyes, n yelllow hairs :D n white skin :D

they are Trabzon's famous meals, foods :D

I don't know their names :D:D

but i know that >Most of them are maden from Fish :D:D

:D:D

My blog finished here :D

I hope, Some day i can visit there :D

Would u like to come with me?

Haha We can clibm the Sürmene :D

The mother's of Cultures >Mardin!

CaN I CrY — Thu, 19 Jun 2008 14:10:50 GMT

The mother's of Cultures >Mardin!

Here is Mardin! A city in Turkey’s East! :D

The houses are maden from rocks. .. Because there is so hot! This houses are really ancienct!

Mardin > The mother of diffirent cultures!

Turkish, Kurdish, Yezidis, Süryanis, Christians, Muslims!!!

You can see many types of cultures in Mardin!

N all of them live so friendly with each other….

For example: In Ramadans, all of them fast with Muslim people.

Or if there is a baptism, all muslim people go there so see this ceremony.
Look.. N see it with ur eyes..
They are near each other.. But anyone doesn't give damages from others!
It is a ancient school to grow teenagers to be priest…
Now it is used as a Church. But the tourists can visit it, can go into it, n take some pics… Expecially Christians prefer it :D:D          The church is at night...  He is the first priest in that church :D

It is a big dam! The East of Turkey isn’t have much water… So they use it very carefully..

The water is as a God for them!

Also blacksmithing n to work of a tinker are very important for Mardin’s people. Their favory job is that!

They make good stuffs from iron n copper n tins!
N they make  rugs.. Nice n traditional rugs.. If you go Mardin, you should buy one of them :D   She is making bread in this pic. She isn't a muslim woman in fact! But all women in MArdin, use muslim clothes. They close their body!    A house!! So traditional.. So fantastic..  It has a high roof.. Bcasue they have to have some cold in summers. This type of house are more mild than otherS    >> His name is Gabriel Akyüz.. The misinter of Suryani's church...  He have being work in that Church as a priest for 6-8 years. I don’t know him very much. We travelled with my family 6 years ago..   We visited this Church… My father n the priest got in with each other, n becamse close firend :D.. So that night we went her home for dinner..   I never forget his fineness..    :D:D:D   A Suryani man.. :D:D But i don't know what he is trying to do :D:D    Yezidi men.. :D Their holy colour is ''White'' They always try to wear in white! But they never wear ''Blue'' I don't know why. But it is a big sin in their Religion.. Yezidi is a religion.. So interrestnig.. Omgg... :D They worship to '' Devil'' .. Yes you read rightly.. To ''Devil'' But of course,they so good people... N they aren't satanist!! It is God.. It is ''The Devil'' for Yezidis.. A peacock    Mardin at night!!   Look to MArdin from a high hill... So dry!   Or look it from a big window :D:D Again Dry :S ____ My blog finished... Did u like?
I hope, I can travel Mardin again. Because when i went there, I was too young to undersatadn historical place’s importance!
  So i didn’t enjoy it so much.. But now, I am sure, Mardin is the mother of cultures!

Welcome to where I live!

CaN I CrY — Tue, 17 Jun 2008 13:10:40 GMT

Welcome to where I live!

Hi friends. I will introduce where I live.. You know, I live in İstanbul. But İstanbul is a big city. So It has parted a lot of districts. One of them is where I live now. I love my city n district so much! Blue sky, Nice people… But the Sea is getting dirty day by day.. But it is still good and beautiful now! I love you, Pendik!! It is my district in İstanbul.

I won’t explain its beautiez with words. Let’s see with ur eyes

In this pic, they were filling the Sea with rocks n making a new road for us! So it doesn't look green.. But now, It is so green n nice :)      Rowboats.. You always can see them on the shore.. In old days there were a lot of small ships of fisherman. They used them as a restaurant. :) N they made so delicious meals of fish. But then, some people said ‘We don’t want to these here. Becasuse they close our good scene’’ So the municipality forbit them.. So now, there isn’t any ship-restaurant there.   But i loves them .. Ughh How stupid people are!

Old pic :))

Are u seing a small hill in this pic… It is >GözDağı I always go there with my friends.. This pic is old. Now, It is more beautiful !

A big mosque.. It always has got many prayers. Expecially old mans. They go for pray n they sit in the garden of mosque after praying

Same mosque at night, with lights :))

Store road.. owww So crowded with cars.. So awasome with lights :))
  Here is very beautiful in winters too. We always play show with friends, with family.. (Not with my dad..Becasue he hate show. )

I love this road. In fact there aren’t many cars there… There is crowded with people not with cars. But in that pic isn’t so.

There is a small dam here. But it is too far from my house. There aren’t many houses near it!
People choose there to have a picnic :)
A park…But it is not looking good now.   In fact it is more beautiful than this pic. :) I often cycling there. But there are a lot of chilren there. So i am afraid of hitting them :D:D

Houses :))

Mosque

A a big n ugly TIR :))

So nice to live here :))

A rocky place :))
Darlings always sit there together n talked :P

Maybe fight :))

Haha I never go there.. Because maybe my bf get angry with me and throw me to the Sea :)

Kidding :))

My blog finished here :P

I hope you like where i live :))

Let's come here..

Kissess....Muahhccckkss :P

My father's HomeTown > Bitlis-Van

CaN I CrY — Mon, 16 Jun 2008 10:45:48 GMT

My father's HomeTown > Bitlis-Van

Hi,friends. I want to introduce my father's hometown. It is Bitlis.

But I will send Van's pics too. Because at first Bitlis n Van were together.. Then they parted n became 2 diffirent cities..

But they are still together :))

Now at first, I will try to introduce the villages!

An untidy, a crooked, a lonely road! Where is ur head? Where is ur end?

How many cute children walked on you? Did they play each other? Did they talk about their dreams?

Hey rainbow. You w aited rain's stopping to show urself. But children are angry with you. Because when u waited for rain's stopping, they were waitnig for you.

Hey, Here is dry.Here is rainless. Rain doesn't love here. So they always miss you!

An apple tree.

How nervous you are. But the Sun will make you shy. N you will get red! Chilren will come near u n they look you hungryly.. N they will pluck ur apples..

So Can you share ur apples with them.

Heyy Don't be selfish ( as Ricky) :P ( Haha Ricky will kill me)

Are u seeing the woman in the field?

Woman of East!!

Mother of peace!!

Friend of hope!!

They never give up, never spot, always work!

Their holy souls never die!!

Woww....

A field of corn!

A field of bread!

A field of cake!

Hahaa... you can make everthing with corns!!

If you want to explain me what water is.. I explain it just with 2 words!

Water.... You are life.. You r death.

This water is the end of a big waterfall.. Too cold n very clear! Also has white foams..

An old man is put out to pasture his animals

Little goats!

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Now I will introduce the senter of the town! It has great historical stuffs! Bitlis is a Too old city between Anatolia n Mezapotamia.

Bitlis is famous with its minaret!

Bitlissssss with 5 big minarets!

There is a big fortress in Bitlis. Which have been maden from huge rocks.. People say that >This kale's mortar have been maden with mortar.. So they are too powerfull.. So this fortress has being living for centuries..

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Now i will introduce you the biggest lake of Turkey!!

It is too big.. N its water isn't salty..>It has carbonated mineral water..

Some people use the lake, when they want to have some cold! :)

>>to Swim!! :)

It is a small island on the lake!!

Akh Tamar Island (Akdamar).

It has a super story between a muslim boy n a Christian Armenian girl!

May be i can tell you about this story.. But it is too long :))

There is a big Church in this Island! N its architecture is really beautiful!! It's poof looks like a cross... N there are a lof ot pics about Jesus (Isa) n Holy Virgin (Meryem)

It is spring.. look some snows haven't melted yet in this pic!

Some ancient tombs!

A mosque between greens! :))

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Hey, friens.. My blog finished here!

I hope You liked my father's hometown.. It is too far from Istanbul!

So i can't visit there often.. but i love it sooo much! :)

Anywhere can't be as good as Bitlis!

It is my darling!!

I love u Bitlis!!!!!!!!!!!

I hope I could intoruce a city in East of Turkey.. Soem people just know Turkish beachs. but there are many historical places in East!

So i suggest you visiting there too!

Byee :))

Look my Science High SchooL

CaN I CrY — Sat, 14 Jun 2008 11:42:09 GMT

Look my Science High SchooL

As you know, I am a student in Science High School. They are a type of high school's.

Our first aim,is to learn with experiments.

I will show you some pics of my school. But they are not explain my school completely. Because i have taken them in a day.

We have 5 laboratuies there... physics,chemistry, biology, math n geometry n a vidoe room!

Hey, :) Don't you weigh ur kilos :)) ? No nooo, You are too fat to use it :P

An aquarium.. But we don't have any fish. :) Just some water planets..

Oglena,paramesium... n there are many one-cell-living things are live there..>On water planets.

Every students have their microscop.. They are just them!

A miniature of Marmara sea.. Haha..I know it is not very good :P .. :)

My tomatos... I planted them.. Now they are getting red!

In chemistry labo. I was making a experiment. :P But i couldn't no it. My freind came n helped me! :)

My friends was trying set fire a something.. When they burn, they make some flames in diffirent colours like rainbow.. U should see them. So enjoying :)

Hmm..some things in biology labo. :P We have studied on their roots with microscop. Look my tomatos are still there :)

My friend's flower. We have studied with its pollens n some stomas of its leafs..

Withh>>

Hahaa.. I don't like use magnifying glass.. I can't see clear with them!

Haha..My friends had maden ''Biodizel'.. It is very good for nature n atmosfer. It doesn't make dirty. It is used with some planet's oils. For exam: soybean.

We made a robot car which gets motion with command. It is very useful when the eartquick becomes. Becuse this car go to the sounds.. When a person is in broken house, This car can hear its sounds n help you for find this person.

Hahayy.. I don't know why they were put there :))

Again, flower..:) I liked it :))

My desk in class. It is my hand :)

My class... One Saturday, I realized that I has forgetten my some books at schoo. So i went to school n class. Then I took this pic. There is nobody...

I didn't write them...:) Because i can't write so good.

A painting in the school hall.. We like art. There are many painting in our school hall. They were all drew by us!

Again a painting.

Hahaaa...My little library in my room at home. :) Yes, I know it's too untidy :((

:))

They finished.............

Let's join us!

(Today is my first holiday's day. :) Hahaa..I am gonna miss my school. So i prepared this blog to introduce my school. N teach you some ways of Science!

:))

Byee... I hope, you like this blog n my school.

(Sorry for my poor English gramer).. (I wanna die)

Nazar Boncugu or Blue Glass Evil Eye Bead Amulet.

CaN I CrY — Mon, 09 Jun 2008 09:56:08 GMT

Nazar Boncugu or Blue Glass Evil Eye Bead Amulet.

This thousands of years old talisman continues to fight against the evil eye all over the world.

Since then the people have been attaching this evil eye bead to everything they wished to protect from evil eyes. From the new-born babies to their horses or even to the doors of their homes... Evil eyes - nazar boncugu keychains, evil eye cellphone charms, evil eye jewellery, evil eye - nazar worry beads...
The blue evil eye beads might be looking as if trying to say,
"Don't bother... Everything is all right..."

In Turkey, wherever you look, you'll meet plenty of eyes looking at you. It is common in the Turkish culture to give a gift of a " Blue Glass Nazar Boncugu ( bonjouk ) " or " Evil Eye Bead " as it is more widely known. People hang a small evil eye amulet from the rear view mirror of their car, keep several small evil eye beads or charms on hand to give to guests, hang an evil eye near their door in the home or office. Glass evil eyes are worn, in the form of jewelry; evil eye bracelets, evil eye necklaces, evil eye anklets, gold or silver evil eye charms and pendants, blue evil eye talismans, evil eye earrings - rings and plenty of evil eye ethnic jewelry sets. Here it is a real evil eye bead paradise.
All those Turkish glass evil eye charms - nazar boncugu - would make you feel as if you are being pursued. It is as if secret eyes are following the life and the people.

It gives protection and brings luck to all.
With its warm blue, the shine it has derived from the fire and the smiling face that's a typical feature of the Anatolian people, it gives happiness to the friends and the beloved ones.

The Reflections of an Ancient Anatolian Belief on Glass : Nazar Boncugu
Throughout the whole human history, in every culture and religion, the eye figure has been considered as a powerful talisman to defy evil forces. Blue evil eye beads of Turkey - Nazar Boncugu say " Mash allah " " God has willed it ".

Mash-Allah :))

An alternative Islamic name for this charm is the Hand of Fatima, in reference to Fatima Zahra, the daughter of Muhammed. An alternative Jewish name is the Hand of Miriam, in reference to Miriam, the sister of Moses and Aaron.

About nations > Turkish-Kurdish-Armenian

CaN I CrY — Sat, 17 May 2008 13:55:27 GMT

About nations > Turkish-Kurdish-Armenian

As you know, I am just a Turkish citizen. I am a Kurdish-Armenian.. But most Kurdish! Not Armenian.

Kurdish-Turkish-Armenian.. What a terrible triangle. And I am middle them. It is very difficult for me.

I have to be all them.. love all them.. speak all language.. n be objective when that fight.

Kurdish and Turkish always fight

Armenia and Turkish always fight

Show me a way. Give my patience.. I’m really bored! Allahhhhh

Maybe I am lucky too. Because I have learned a lot of language and I can speak all them wonderfully, fluently, like parent language.

But also so unlucky, Because I have to be into a stupid fight between Turkish-Kurdish and Turkish-Armenian!

Allah (God)…Give my patience..