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After my speaking class on Tuesday and Thursday,
my teacher, Steve, often does "After the Class"
(like that of Oprah's "After the Show", Ha ha ha....)

We always talk about everything:
life in America, Thai culture, traffic, TV show, Oprah, and so on...

In the meanwhile, I plan to study an MBA in the States
but still haven't taken any TOEFL and GMAT.
I'm think I'm not ready for it,
maybe because I'm kind of perfectionist
who wants everything to be 100% perfect. <---[How on earth could it happen???!!!]
But Steve (and all of my friends) insists that I'm ready
(maybe because I'm so talkative, like a chatterbox in class. Haha.)

And today he told me one thing: "Life is not a dress rehearsal."

A dress rehearsal is the final practice of a play, opera etc,
using all the clothes, objects etc that will be used for the actual performance.

But life is not a dress rehearsal. It's show time!
He said I could keep practicing until I was old and still doing so
but that's already a part of my show, my actual show time.
So stop procrastinate and take that take. For heaven's sake...

Well.... I'm kind of understanding everything he said
but I was so stunned by his words
because no one has ever talked straight to me like that before.
And he still kept teasing me by saying that
when he goes back to America, he will call me and tell:
"I'm in America and you've still got stuck there... (in Bangkok)."

So I'm going to take the test by this month and we shall see, Steve!!!

There was news about a girl who committed suicide
by jumping from a 10-storey condominium in central Bangkok on last Saturday.
When I read it, I thought her name was so familiar to me
and I came across that she graduated from the same faculty as mine.

The reason, according to newspapers,: a dispute with her boyfriend

She was an attractive girl, four years younger than me,
a cheerleader of the university, and became a lecturer.

Many say she failed to understand the value of life
and urged schools and families to place more importance
on teaching children to live with consciousness
and to strive for happiness in life,
according to the Lord Buddha's teaching. bla bla bla........

To me, it's no use blaming anyone or society.
It's her choice and she might think it's the only way out.

What would you do if you were in her shoes?
Some may say they wouldn't do such that foolish thing anyway.
But how could you know? You are not her.

Yes, suicide is not the answer
but to impose ideas on people is not a ready-made solution, too.

I'm sorry for the thing she did
but even sadder about the fact that
many people judge everything from their own point of view
and do not try to understand others.

Well....., I may sound unreasonable but that's what I feel.
I'm not in a logical mode of thinking today...

Well, for a couple weeks,
I've spent most of my time talking with myself,
really, but only in English... LOL

Lately, I take a conversation class
so I have to get used to English as much as possible
in order to perform well and impress others. Haha.
And read a lot, also, to see
how native speakers express their idea.
Then just copy it into my own.

And I think I’m getting a lot better now. That’s all.

My friend suggested me to write a blog everyday
and that's also a good idea.
Anyway, I don't do things much these days,
getting up, reading, chatting, posting on web board.
That's all for my day, except on Tuesday and Thursday
which I take conversation class.

Maybe I'm just too lazy to take a topic from the TOEFL
and make it again.
Gotta boost up my courage again. Argh!!!!!!!!!