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Your Real Am

Rikarduhedgehog — Sun, 06 Jul 2008 12:46:47 GMT

Your Real Am

Keep Insane, but behave as ordinary people. Take the Risk of being different – but learn to do it without draw attention. Leave your Real Am manifest. Real Am: What you’re not what people want you be

This is my real am… I’m Insane inside. I don’t worry about what people think bad about me.. I just try to make the difference to myself! I’ve Dreams, I’ve a life, I’ve all I want (at least almost all)…I leave my dreams flow so much inside…I remembered about this sentence in up, when I saw Sibel’s Blog about she wanted to adopt a black child. But not just because of that… in there it make me remember how we are so weak… always interested in just ourselves… you cannot say that you’re not selfish, because all people are. Cannot be so shown or so opened, but all of we are, and at least we were selfish.The sentence I wrote it doesn’t just mean about be naughty or Crazy… First time I saw this I remember what we always try to do… let me give an example:

Somebody invite you to a party. Yeah a big party… the year party!!! Oh let’s buy some new clothes to it… and then when you arrived and you see a boy or a girl…very very very ugly… with stupid clothes… she is not with anybody… Will you be with her? DON’T SAY YOU WILL, BECAUSE YOU WON’T! that girl it’s like you and me… but she is poor… should she have to be rejected by the people on the Party just because she is poor??? No… but she is rejected. Nobody cares about it… and many times in that parties are some couple of guys or girls, who make fun with them…yeah fun. Really funny..yeah you will laugh, but if it was with you will you laugh??? -> hey Folks! That girl in that table is wearing her Grandma clothes!! Hahaha!! Oh and look to her glasses! Oh! Did you buy it on a fair?? HAHAH oh and look to her hair!! Did your mum Cut it just for this School party? Hahaha’’ … THAT girl will feel so bad… she run away from the Party, crying so much… nobody run with her to be with her… yeah! Why? Because if they weren’t -> ‘’OH, that girl in fact has a Boyfriend! Oh look what a perfect couple!!! So cool! The Ugly girl and the Nerd boy! Wow, they children will be next Ugly betty? HAHAH’’…in that time, the girl that run way had a car crush, and died… when all of them knew, they felt so guilty… oh yeah…but the mistake it’s done.

That story was invented by me, but I heard many many stories about cases like this… really many.. I know I know… I jumping the Subject..and the story doesn’t have nothing about the Sentence, but I don’t like to talk just about one thing.I had passed more or less like this… I mean, not because of wearing stupid clothes, that never happened to me. But many people made fun with me… I know that at least all of you were a center of laugh…I mean I think many people laugh of you at least once in your life…

Pff… ‘’leave your really Am’’ what a stupid guy… Yes…I’m…I’m insane!! Don’t you remember that I wrote up? But if you think this is stupid why are you reading this??? Nobody obligate you to read this! (hahahah this is just for the case if someone call me stupid mwahahah)Whatever I will still writing… I didn’t copy or paste this from somewhere, I really did this.. I hope this Post entry be the most cool of all I’ve made… this is one of the most pure, and write from heart I’ve made…And now I remember a thing…. Yep, let’s think about another story…hmm… this time I’ll use a boy…It’s in the final Year school party… A boy present there with a stupid hair, with stupid clothes and stupid glasses… Everybody laugh… and their friends too… but not the Real friends…they got a smile, but not a laugh. The Boy felt so humiliated, that he run away (no he’s not an Emo boy, but he cried), and he started to cry… his Real friends run back him…and they said…’’oh don’t worry … you still beautiful for us…’’ the boy said ‘’ thanks my friends…I’m really happy about that…but I cant be happy… they laugh at me… I’m a nerd…’’ the friends had an idea…and they changed his dresses and they put his hair cooler and they take out the glasses…yes, he’s perfect now…he entered on the party… all stopped and stop to think ‘’wow, what a hell! He was so ugly..and now he’s so handsome’’ yep…that time a girl who laugh at him, invited him to dance ‘’no honey! Nerd people cant dance with sophisticated people right? So get out of here’’ … in that time, the ‘’sophisticated people’’ where all a band of nerds and idiots…

People..okay not all people, but most of all people just want another people because he/she is pretty or he/she has a good body…And the others??? They can not be pretty or a good body…but trust me, they are most lovely, perfect, and handsome inside. If you need help of somebody probably they are the most trustful.. (okay okay some..not all it depends of the person, but many or most of the times they are)People just think in beautiful and handsome …

But… why should you have this if you’re not happy? Oh, no! don’t tell me that you are happy side of a Handsome guy or a pretty girl? Oh really?? Does She/he make you happy? Really? With what? Hmm… you should see your head of the table, to see how handsome or how pretty she is! Yeah, do you like have those horns in your head!? Yeah that make you happy, and make me happy too, of laugh of you…Whatever now let’s see…you’re married or in a date, or with a simple friendship, with an ugly guy/girl… Are you Happy? Oh really? Why? Yes…he/she is trustful… she suffered because being like she/he is… she/he never will do bad to you…she/he will help you always… he/she is the perfect Friend ever This is just examples…actually there are many cute girls and handsome guys happy and ugly persons, really bad…

Whatever…So our really am… not the thing others want we be… don’t change just because somebody said that you’re better like that… be yourself.. you’ve to be as you are, not because others think you are better like that…wake up! Look at you! God gave you just an opportunity of live in this beautiful world!! Despite of these wars, these illnesses, you’ve to be happy!!! So many places to go, so many things to learn, so many things to enjoy…but remember..never enjoy alone! Enjoy always with a friend ^^ things will be more funny, if you do it with a friend!^^ Why not take good pics with them? Why not travel to another exotic country with them? Why not enjoy your last days of life with them? And why don’t you make happy somebody? Why don’t you help somebody that want this too…or at least love… you’ve love, I’ve love, but he/she doesn’t have… Please be yourself… please Be insane inside, and be a Man/woman outside! Make the difference, and make others smile.

Ilk ay

Rikarduhedgehog — Wed, 02 Jul 2008 15:43:37 GMT

Ilk ay

mutluyum, çünkü benim ilk ay Türkçe tamamlamiyerim var, ama çok daha giysiler hala ihtiyacim var

i know i know!!! this is all wrong :)

As you know i'm trying to learn Turkish ^^ and it's complete a month o learning :)

now i'm in vacations, and i decided to make this vacations a ''skool year'' of Turkish ^^

So i hope i can be able to have a basic turkish in september :)

anyway here is the correct version of the sentence :)

was not me that correct

mutluyum çünkü türkçe derslerindeki ilk ayımı tamamladım,ama hala öğrenmem gereken çok şey var

Wax plant

Rikarduhedgehog — Tue, 01 Jul 2008 17:11:50 GMT

Wax plant

finilly arrived another botanic lesson :D mwahahahah i know you all were wishfull to see my new plant :)

this is wax plant :)

it's famouse for their leafs looks like wax...and if you touch it's like wax :)

i've one in my house mwahahah :)

the flowers are really beautiful, they look like porcelain :)

and the leafs can break if you be strong :):):)

wax plant it's famouse by decoration, and this plant its more or less like a ivy....

it grows much in summer, and their flowers just can be showed in summer...

after that they are like this -->

mwahahah :)

the flowers can have sugar...yep...a wax plant sugar, that many bugs like... :)

so this plant it's very good ^^

it's not a dangerouse plant... just if you kill a bug in their flowers, because then the bugs will have to do a funeral nearby there...mwahahah

this is my vase of wax plant :) (ok not mine but of my mum)

anyway one day i'll show if it doesnt die until there

mwahahah

pictures by me

bye bye KRWWO

Rikarduhedgehog — Mon, 30 Jun 2008 19:14:04 GMT

bye bye KRWWO

^^ Another day hot... damn :) i'm not writting this to tell about my day :D

I'm just wondered :D

Why people here want to kill me???

in fact are more or less 8 persons that wanna to kill me...

Am I Bad???

anyway i bought yesterday a coffin, but sibel is correct...KRWWO will burn me, or destroy me, or drag me until the sea, or somethin' like that...

anyway i'm not sure that you will kill me because .. you know... in fact all of you want to kill me, because i'm so handsome and so beautiful ,that you know I wont be never your boyfriend!!!

I always knew that :D

mwahahaha:D poor of you, arent there more handsome guys in the world, why want me? hahaha :D

anyway KRWWO will be drown, or will be bankruptcy

:) you all dont have funds to buy guns, and things like that...

KRWWO will be anichilate by own ricky (me)

mwahahah poor KRWWO :)

Whatever, they really think that i'd give White flag as Crazy anna said?

never..sorry...

So Good bye KRWWO, you're busted :D because you all dont have money to pay that you already construct :D

mwahahah

? ? ? No Tittle ? ? ?

Rikarduhedgehog — Sat, 28 Jun 2008 10:00:16 GMT

? ? ? No Tittle ? ? ?

I'm not writte now to give you my msn. I'm not write now to say how my day was... I'm not write to say Who I'm... That's for be Written in Shout or somethin' like that.

Anyway I'm Just Wondered how people change! I cant Stand Changes in People. They were so GReat, and then they became Crazy! O.O

Sometimes I think it's because of the hot... But and the people who Already live in Hot??'? it's The Hot either?

i guess they're passing bad times, but Do I have Fault? Do I need to be ''spit''?

Damn, I know when a person it's angry do Crazy things like swearing, say to us fuck off, reject us...and worse things...But i'm not the guilty!!!

Reading Tragedic Sentences in their MSN, and in their sms,,, Seeing they Saying '' LEAVE ME ALONE'' or ''FUCK YOU, I HATE EVERYBODY'' or a simple ''DO YOU MIND??? I'M BUSY, PAL''

They put just in their status ''away'' just to have a reason to do not answer... or the famouse ''busy''...

Anyway i'm rid of it... As they dont want me, i wont want them either...

New Ricky Becomes...Today, Tomorrow, and Forver.

Even....

Rikarduhedgehog — Wed, 25 Jun 2008 10:07:14 GMT

Even....

when we start it looks just to improve the english, but it comes a frienship that time dont damp, that time dont forget, and that distance would not separate. Even all of we come from difrent sides, have difrent main languages,difrent colors, difrent life prespectives, difrent religions, nothin' will separate our love, our Friendship...I dont wanna separate of you never, life will not allow, even the bad separate us, you'll be with me, with us, in our heart... that today we are constructing, tomorrow will be our kingdom...

Casiol

Rikarduhedgehog — Tue, 24 Jun 2008 12:51:27 GMT

Casiol

today i woke up, with a determination of do a Blog about one person well known here...

yes i know you already saw this person in your nightmares...but in that time that person has Red eyes, and the moth has blood...

anyway that Person it's called Buggy girl, or --> Casiol

that person it's a Girl...

WRONG

that person it's a boi... :Dmwahhahah :D she know what I'm talk about :Danyway CAsiol, it's a cute girl :) look to this pic :) so pretty right??? but please dont slobber or fall in love about her, coz she is already married with her Gun... Dot you believe???she married in ... i dont know :@ she didnt invite me :@anyway i still love her ^^ (dont misunderstand me com'on) here is she tryin' to look cute, but you dont need to do that...we all know that you're a serialkiller, a buggy girl, and you want kill all of us... (expecially ricky--that poor handsome, cute, brilliant, awesome,crazy, funny, and cool guy)anyway, she tried many times but never killed him...she has a weak point...ricky ..HAHAHAH:D that's the first pic that she took when arrived to Earthshe sent to his brothers in CAZiolIS planet...anyway here she has her alien face...but she hide with clothers allways...that's why she choose Malaysia...:Doh and all adresses have guns, machine.guns, axes,hunting-guns, and so on...her favourite gun it's Axes...she said it's better to kill, and better to save the Blood in bottles :D here is she tryin' to say --> hey, look, i'll do it to youmwahahahah:Dnever make a Naughty girl like Casiol angry or the last thing you will see it's a axe...whadda horrible end.. :D i prefered see the National Geographic magazine :P:P:P here is she sayin' --> shtttttt...and then...TRAAAAAAAAZZZ... you're dead... i guess she has a particular Graveyard...hmm... i dont have that pics,,, you know, it's dificult steal Casiol :D can you see???yep..see as i was telling the truth always!!! see the Blood??? here was in one day, when she backs of a hunt... :Dyou know..she is smart... 1-> her smile after kill you2->still smilling3->okay you are almost dead4->you're dead5-> great!!!i got'cha mwhahahaha it's her Photograph session :D here is her celebrating her hunt ^^oh she is sooo cute :) how a girl can be so bad??? (i know this pic already seen but it's so cute this one)look to her.... you know, she has the gun in her legs, anyway this is her husband so she already has now that gun, and want to kill me... so please somebody can protect me??? anyway my life were good ^^Thank you all , and if someday casiol kill me(i doubt) please my last wish is --> KILL HER FOR Me!!!!;)

Hey Do you Know Emo, Punk, Screamo, Hard Rock , and Hardcore Good bands?

Rikarduhedgehog — Sat, 21 Jun 2008 16:48:18 GMT

Hey Do you Know Emo, Punk, Screamo, Hard Rock , and Hardcore Good bands?

Hey Do you Know Emo, Punk, Screamo, Hard Rock , and Hardcore Good bands? I'd like to know more Some Good bands! ^^

Anyway i'm saying some Very good :

Demon hunter
Skillet
Rise Against
Funeral To a Friend
Hayko Cepkin
çilekes
Kurban
Bullet For my Valentine
Bring me the Horizone
Hundreadfolds
Simple Plan
My Chemical Romance
Disturbed
3 days Grace

okay those are some...

Do you know more?

Thanks

If you were...

Rikarduhedgehog — Fri, 20 Jun 2008 12:22:48 GMT

If you were...

If you were a ...., You'd .... ?

TEll me :)

I hope you understand this game heheh :)

waiting your response

Pampas Grass

Rikarduhedgehog — Wed, 18 Jun 2008 14:16:06 GMT

Pampas Grass

I'd like to talk about my Favourite plant... It's Pampas Grass...Called too --> Cortaderia selloana and Plume.

In this Blog, i'll not show my own pics, because i dont have this plant... i tried 4 times have this plant, but it died allways.

So i believe i cannot have this plant at home.. i tried many times, with root, with all, but allways died...and others plants i tried and they never died... i believe God (allah and Jesus) dont want that i have this plant... anyway i'll always try have this plant...but you will see that plant is not a Flower to smell LOL

anyway...

Pampas Grass, it's very beautiful

while is little like this one, it's very beautiful (even when is big)...

This plant Produce a thing like a plume, used many times as decoration..

i guess this plant is seen in almost all world, because it's a very Strong plant... :)

you will see why-->

The leafs of this plant is very dangerouse, they can hurt you, wound...cut... i dont know a word to use in this case... the leafs are like a saw... believe me, first time, i touch one i started bleed off..and i even didnt know why, because we dont feel it..(just sometimes)

so you touch on it, and you start bleeding of your hand and if you didnt know well this plant you should think you hurt in somewhere else.

this plant can Be little when you plant...but believe me , one year later it will be like this -->

of course if you cut many times, it wont be like this, but if you dont cut, sorry but it will hide your home...like this one...

this plant Can Grow up, until 2.5 metres...wow!! yeah.. almost like my house... wow...

when it grow up, it expandes...

they've a system in their roots, that can Grow to the left and right...

it's very frequently see this plant nearby seaside

so when the plant Grow up, if you have a Garden , you have to be carefull, because this plant surelly can destroy every thing that appear in front of it...

In my area, there is some homes with this, and one Lady, had one..and she got Crazy about it, and so tried to rid of it...

hahaha

let me tell you how she did

she tried to unbury the plant..but she couldnt be able... when the plant get very very big, it's almost impossible to remove the plant of the Garden...

then she tried to put fire on it

and she got this

she tought it was dead, but 3 days then, started appear Green things like appear on the pic...

so the only way was call a derrick, to get outta the plant...

omg...

so you can see how Dangerouse the plant is :D

but i still love this plant...

and for me it's my favourite one...

looks so

powerful?

passific...

but in fact it's so Strong and Horrible

I hope you like it :)

This is my Favourite plant :)

Ricky

How to do make a BackGround

Rikarduhedgehog — Tue, 17 Jun 2008 12:46:03 GMT

How to do make a BackGround

As many people are asking me how I did my Back Ground i'll teach you now, how to do your Own BackGround

it's easy...

first you have to select the pic.

for example this one :

the URL is --> http://vicissitudedeser.files.wordpress.com/2007/08/cat2.jpg

you've to know the Url... :)

okay then you have to post that in here -->

SO THEN will be like this -->

so then you copy and past in somewhere in your ''Edit Profile'' :)

I always put in --> ''Things i like''

now I'll teach how to put color in your Page... (color on letters and sentences)

first you've to know the Color Codes...and they are all in here:

okay now you chose the colors and paste in this -->

<style>

img{
border:0;
}
td, tr, div{
background-color:transparent;
border:0;
}
table{
background-color:transparent;
border:0;
}
table table{
background-color:transparent;
border:0;
}
table table table{
background-color:rgb(187,187,187);
border-width:7;
border-color:rgb(82,82,82);
border-style:groove;
}
table table table td{
border:0;
}
table table table table{
background-color:rgb(187,187,187);
border:0;
}
body, div, span, td, p, .lightbluetext8, strong, b, u, .redtext, .redbtext, .btext, .text, .blacktext10, .blacktext12 {
font-family:Arial;
font-size:12px;
color:#COLOR CODE ;
font-weight:bold;
}
.nametext{
font-family:Georgia;
font-size:22px;
color:#COLOR CODE ;
font-weight:bold;
}
.whitetext12, .orangetext15{
font-family:Verdana;
font-size:16px;
color:#COLOR CODE ;
font-weight:bold;
}
a.navbar:link, a.navbar:active, a.navbar:visited, a.navbar:hover, a.man:link, a.man:active, a.man:visited, a.man:hover, a, a:link, a:active, a:visited, a:hover, a.navbar:link, a.navbar:active, a.navbar:visited, a.navbar:hover, a.text:link, a.text:active, a.text:visited, a.text:hover, a.searchlinksmall:link, a.searchlinksmall:active, a.searchlinksmall:visited, a.searchlinksmall:hover, a.redlink:link, a.redlink:active, a.redlink:visited, a.redlink:hover {
color:#COLOR CODE ;
font-weight:bold;
}
a.navbar:hover, a.man:hover, a:hover {
color:#COLOR CODE ;
font-weight:bold;
text-decoration:underline;
}
</style>

AN IMPORTANT NOTE --> Dont forget it has to be like this -->

color:#FF000 ;

it has to have --> # and next of the color code, a space...

if you dont do that, it wont work... :)

okay i teach all i know :)

I hope i could help you Do a Great Webpage :)

Enjoy it Ricky

Es Teler Done by Ricky

Rikarduhedgehog — Mon, 16 Jun 2008 15:04:55 GMT

Es Teler Done by Ricky

wow!

I'm so fed up :D

Armilia told me how to do ---> Es teler... So i tried do one ^^

As i dont have mango, avocados, and other fruits, like those at home i resoleved use those ones :D

orange
apple
loquat
framboise

yup...

So first of all you've to put bread in somethin' like a Cup.

(i used this bread :D)

then you cut the Fruits and put like this ^^

Are you seeing???

then you put some Ice cubes ^^ (but without poison, or blood)

Can you find out the Ice cubes?

then you take the milk ^^ (in fact it's the best thing in this Recipe lol )

Bread with milk it's yummy (but the bread with milk has to have Sugar :D)

but this Recipe, dont have sugar

Leite means milk ^^

then do like this ^^

yummy

then finnished ^^

i did just with these fruits... apple there is good, and orange... Framboise and Loquat i think it's not so good there.. ^^

anyway try with Strawberry, pears, Rat poison, fly poison, and things like that ^^

Enjoy't

Made By Ricky

Loquat

Rikarduhedgehog — Sun, 15 Jun 2008 12:54:54 GMT

Loquat

Finily arrived the Good Season..it's this time when i love more, in the intire year :)

It's now where the Flowers and plants more Grow up.. It's now where plants show their Skills, their Beautiful things :)

yesterday i saw my loquat Tree, and it was completly full of loquats :D

wow! :)

So now i decided introduce Loquats and other things about this tree and Fruit:)

Well, loquat it's very yummy :D

it tastes is acid, but it's so tasty :D

I love ( JUST MY LOQUATS) loquats... :)

I just like my loquats, because they are mine, and they are more tasty than others like we buy in shop...

Because i dont use Chemical products, and they grow up by nature... i dont need to give water to it :)

So let me show the Fruit:

as you can see, it looks really natural..:)

and those are just a sample :)

i've many in a ''basin'' :)

so now i'll talk about the Tree :)

I've just one :)

but this fruit profuce 3 big seeds :)

i had planted one when i was 5... (as you can see at that time i loved nature (plants and animals))

so the tree have 10 years :) it just produced 5 years ago ^^

anyway, to the Tree can give fruits, it has to see another Tree like it...

So i had to plant a loquat tree ...

i put in a Vase, a seed, and in 4 moths it started to grow up, and one year later it has 60 cm :)

So the tree could see it and so started to give fruits :)

Look to my beautiful Loquat Tree :)

anyway i guess in this pic, you cannot see the other loquat tree more small ^^

anway.. :)

I hope you enjoyed :)

Anybody want a loquat to eat?

oh and i found the Translation of Loquats in some language :)

Portuguese (LOL) --> nêspera or magnório

Spanish -> níspero

Armenian -> zger or Nor Ashkhar

Turkish -> muşmula, yeni dünya, or Malta Eriği

6th PhotoHunt -> Home Town

Rikarduhedgehog — Sat, 14 Jun 2008 09:53:31 GMT

6th PhotoHunt -> Home Town

6th PhotoHunt -> Home Town
Project With Sibel- Casiol - ME (lol) - Xixi
---

Wow my Phone Had been Crazy those Days... :S
I dont know What happened with it...so it deleted many many pics...
anyway i can show my pics about my Hometown...
In Fact i've 2...
I mean... one is Felgueiras... where i study, where i pass many time there...
Other one is Lousada...Where is my really Hometown,... but i do not be there many time... i live in a small Village, under those 2 ''towns''...
those Towns... stay 60 km of Porto ^^
Anyway...
i couldnt take many pics :(
Sorry :(
Here is Felgueiras->
This is a small Garden, in the middle of the city...it's the best thing on Felgueiras...the Rest is just builds builds builds... :)
I guess builds is not intersting...so i didnt take any

well this is my Skool where i attent... anyway, is it when it's lonely mwahaah
:D

but many students attent there...all days i met a new face...omg.. LOL
so now it's Lousada...
Lousada is better than Felgueiras in my opinion...
I just attent to Felgueiras, because all my friends are there... anyway,this is the Church :D
wow!!! yeap a Christian Chruch...but in fact i never been under that one... only in others... anyway it's very beutiful place there :D

I dont know if this is Really, but --> my father said that Islamics, Buddists, Jews, and so on, it's part of their legacy, do not enter on Christians church... as i cannot enter on a Muslim Church, or a buddist church...
Why???
:(
I'd like to enter on a Muslim Church the same :S
anyway...Is That REally??

anyway, this photohunt, to me was very poor, because my mobile deleted some..why this happen??
(i think it's because i dont have a memory card, and so it delete the older ones, or somethin' like that... or because i'm allways do things with it, and i deleted as a mistake...i dont know..only God knows ^^)
anyway..sorry all
and You, Which Hometown pics did you take?
LOL

Will my Dream End???

Rikarduhedgehog — Thu, 12 Jun 2008 18:23:06 GMT

Will my Dream End???

today i started thinking in bad things... About my future...and now I see how stupid i be...

Well, As almost all know i wanna be a Botanic or a Zoologist... here in Portugal we have to have grade ( i mean, first i've to tell how those things works... we have High skool right??? so --> 10 grade, 11grade, 12 grade... in my course I've to do an EXAM (a really important exam,...the grade i'd have, i'll be to university)...so I'm in 10 Grade...

To get a grade to enter on university, here we have to sum, the grades of all lessons ( i've 7) and divid to the same... so that will be a grade... and in the others years (11 and 12 the same)...

In 11th grade in my course we have 2 exams... --> To chemestry and Biology...those exams, will be 50% of our grade, so it's important to enter on university ^^

in 12th we have 2 exams again but this time to portuguese and maths... and they are 50% too, but those are not SOOO important to enter on university....

so that was just an information...my real problem, it's because my Dream of being a Botanic or a Zoologist, can end...

in fact, that who is happening to me, is my fault... TOTALLY MY FAULT... I'm the guilty...

This year, i was very child , and i didnt study so much... so you know that I've study much this last term, but you know, was great, but the Problem, already had done.

here our grades are:

0 to 5 --> Really Really Bad

5 to 8 -> Really Bad

8 to 9.5 -> bad

9.5 to 12.5 -> normal

12.5 to 14.5 -> good

14.5 to 16.5 -> Very good

16.5 to 20 --> Awesome!!!

so to can enter in Biology at University, i need to get --> at least 14

Do you know how is the grade of my Year? --> 10th?

so check it out :

English -> 14 (it could be better )

Maths --> 8

physical Education -> 14

physics and Chemestry -> 9

Biology -> 11 (YEAH!!! ONLY 11!!! BECAUSE I DIDNT STUDY)

Portuguese -> 10

Philosophy -> 10

So now you can do my Grade :

14+8+14+9+11+10+10= 76

76/7 =10,8571 --> aproximate 11

so to i can enter with the minimum grade next 2 years i've to have -->

11(10th grade) + 16 (11th Grade) + 16 (12th GRade) = 43

43/3 --> 14,3

so then i can enter... Do you know now, what've to study to i can get??? i dont know if i'll be able to do that...because it's very hard next years

I can fail the year, but that's really bad...

I've just 2 options :

* Fail the year... be more one year in 10th Grade, and improve my grades to better ones, to dont have to study so much...

* in next 2 years, i really have to study muxx muxx muxx

well i dont know what to choose, but either are really hard...

My worse afraid it's if i Cant be able to do that???

Will my dream end???

but this dont make me just sad,...made me really bad...because i know this is all my fault... ALL MY FAULt...

Now more than Ever, i need luck... So many look....

Fail the year is the probably way to do that, but you know fail the year, is fail a year of our life ...

God...

I need lucky... I need hope... I need.......