January 10, 2010
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"All my life I 've been sorry for something. Something gets me now that nothing's such a waste. All this time I've been sayin I'm sorry. But why should I be sorry for all......"
That was the first time of 10th class, my class only had one test so I came back home sooner.
I called phone to him:
- Could you pick up me at school?
- Yes, wait me about 5 minutes
- Quickly, I said
3::00PM, I waited.... 5 minutes, 10 minutes,.. 15 minutes and finally, he came
- I was upset: What did you do? You were late.
- I saw a television show, he said
- What? Television? I sat on bicycle and did not say anything during time to come back my home
- That was the first time, he said sorry to me but I feel that it is not trust, just a lie
- I cried when he said sorry 59th, then 60th.. He took my hand and said sorry. I feel that he was not fine but he did not say with me......
And he repeated "I am sorry" until I could not listen any words... I shouted in my phone and it is a sorry 99th.
From that, I and he did not meet. Sometimes, my phone rang but no one answered. I know that he called but I did not pay attention.
One day, I could not stand this situation, I ran to his school, I saw his class but did not see him. His classmate said that he was at the hospital. I ran quickly to come hospital.
- What's happened? Why you did not call me. I sit down and cried very much.
- He tried to say "I am sorry" and finally, he closed his eyes.
- I shouted: Do not say sorry. Please open your eyes. I took his hand and pushed "Why you say sorry. Why you do not explain. Do not say sorry. If you do not open your eyes, I will never forgive to you. Never... " It is a sorry 100th.
He passed away with blood cancer but he is always my heart, forever....
One month later, his mother gave me one box with many small notes which wrote all reasons why he said sorry to me
"1th: I do not want to come late but when going out my home, I feel very dizzy but I tried to come with you. Can you forgive me?
100th: It is the sorry which he said with me at hospital.
I am sorry, I do not want to leave you alone in this life but another day is different. I am sorry " And his picture with face is very pale because of his health but always smile.
I cried: I am sorry, I did not stay with you when you need me. My friend, I am really sorry.
To be moved to tears......
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