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China
August 29, 2008
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Something changed, but others remain the same as before. Though it happened for many years, on thinking it I was still taken aback. I abased myself to follow you, abandoned myself to your pseudo love.However the result was out of my mind, I always thought would you be abashed of what you had done. I supposed the pent-up feelings would abate with the time went, on the contrary, I felt unhappy and the voice from the bottom of my heart said I am extremely wrong. Sometimes, I believe you aided and abetted me, or I aided and abetted you. As we all known, love was two person’s thing. But to sum up, you were the abettor... I never felt that we were like a normal couple of lovers. When I stayed with you, I even could not acclimatize myself to this ridiculous new identity. I should do the things what you ordered and without a word. You had very black teeth, once I asked you to abstain form smoking, the result was you refused immediately. When I was in poisons ill, you never came to see me. I could not understand your abstruse feeling but I abhor myself in doing such bad things rather than abhor your indifference. I had to abide by the consequences, yet you had vanished into the air. But you should remember none of us can be absolved wholly of wrongdoing. Although you were not the abject coward, you were an abject liar .when you were ablaze with anger to quarrel with me, I knew everything, the love between us is abortive. My childhood was the happiest time in my life, looking back on those salad days always made me smile. I needed not to be abreast of other classmates, abstain from my naïve interest. Everyday I live in my own fairy tale, fancy the happiness of finding the one. Nevertheless, you come up; all the bright and glittering things disappeared, and I was lost in the vast abysses of space and time. It was an abyss of disgrace thing, for you and for me.