Tinulienka

Last few months I´ve been solving one really big dilemma. Well, it´s important to me. A lot. I and my family are two different elements:) Water and fire...and so on. I guess I am water in this case. I think I am the one who tries to do compromises, who tries to explain and find way out. But my family....they burn and burn, they try to be blind, don´t care what I need and what I find right. Are all the parents like this?? Hellooo, are here any parents?!

  First  I thought "come onn....you´re just a teenager, it´s normal that you don´t get on well with your family!" But does teenage age appear like finding God and the right way? Well, I think no. I think that teenagers are mostly very moody people who don´t agree with anything anywhere and find themselves victoms of the embarrassing world of adults....hmmm....wait, it means....I am not a teenager and I have never been. Wow, can please anyone explain this to my parents??????

The problem is that I was born in wrong place. It happens, not? If you read my last blogs, you could find that I really don´t like western society and the way of life here. I love my family, sure, it´s my duty. But how can I make them happy if they don´t let me be happy? I want something else, not what they find normal and good. Their normal is agains my principles. And I can´t break my principles. Cause I would break God´s rules then.

I found my right way, but when I show it, I risk losing my family, their understanding, support and contact. I know I can´t lose their love. I can´t find compromise in this. I can´t leave God...