Juala

In a hot Summer, she said to me:"you are my best friend forever. you won't leave me alone wherever i go, will you?"

i noded with a smile.

To earn money for school, we went to a strange city together on that hot Summer vacation.When we arrived, we both entered a  small company, after a week,, she told me that she really tired for working, and her sister was in the next city and had phoned her to go there.and she wanted to, so , she went to her sister's ,and i was alone and stayed in that strange city for4 months.

those days seemed really hard to through.

After 4 months, we both went back to school.

when the Winter vacation finally came, she said to me:"My house is farther than yours, but  i'll  go in your way if we go home together, shall we go home together tomorrow morning?

you won't leave me alone, will you?"(actually, i could go home on Tuesday afternoon, because we had finished our examitions

that morning. but it was too late for her to go home.)

i noded with a smile.

it was snowy the next morning, and the buses couldn't go anywhere, so  we couldn't go home that morning.

On that Wednessday afternoon, she told me that her grandma asked her to go to her house.(it was not far from our school.)

and she wanted to . because the domitory was so dark and cold.( except us, nobody else was in it.)

i noded with a smile, but quickly turned, and tears fell down.

"don't worry, i understand, so see you next year!" i said .

then she went to her grandma's and left me alone at that dark cold house .

i felt destraied. maybe i was. i was destraied twice by the same person .but i kept on telling me that she really didn't mean that at all. i didn't know why. was i stupid ?

Now , i'll be myself. i don't want to hide my feelings again.