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In the middle of depression.

I am not going to say that I have the worst life in the world, but I do know I have it bad. My stepfather is an alchoholic, and my mother is starting to go intothat beating me up, or, well...trying to beat me up "stage". My oldest brother abuses me, and some of my firneds are talking about me in many bad ways nehind my back for no apparant reason at all.

Something happened that also is not so good.   

Last year, my firned Henry decided to shoot himself in the head and kill himself. This past summer, his mother slit her wrists, and bled to death, and then his father decided that his life was worth nothing and then decided to go the same way Henry did, by shooting himself, only he did not shoot himself in the head, he shot himself in the heart, and it took him 3 long hours to go into peace..

Also...during the past summer..my friend chad hung himself in his mothers bedroom when she was at work, and she felt that it was her fault, so she went and did the same thing to herself (hung herself).

NOw... does it sound like I should be happy?

NO....it doesnt, but ya know what?

Ill get through this, all I have to do is just keep looking toward the future, right?