BROOKEANDKING4EVER

 Well , I think life’s totally suck , everyone around me is suck , maybe it’s meself really suck , how come all the beautiful thing not come to me , I just sonds like a totally jerk that complain all of the things that could happen , I complain that why people  DID NOT choose me ??? WHY ? AM I NOT GOOD ENOUGH? AM I SUCH A IDIOT WHO ALWAYS THINK I’M THE BEST . idiot ! totally , ok , straight A , I DON’T know WHO I AM NOW , I’m just feel so confused.maybe I should get some fresh air . ok , if u really wanna know what had happened , I’ll tell u in a straight way . ‘cuz I’m really not feel ok now , I’d like to  spit it out .well , yesterday , I get an opportunity of a interview of an important event , it’s all about F1 campionship , I felt exciting , ‘cuz I got a chance to meet a lot of foreigners , and if I got in ,I’ll be a volunteer in this big event, so I take my breath and went into that room to get interview , and I felt so nervous and my brain seems to be empty , sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo terrible !! And I didn’t remember what exactly what has I say but only I know is not that good , ok , totally sucks !! by the way , I forgot to mentioned I got a friend with me , and she seemed to do a great job , she was so confident and delight , I so envy , how come I didn’t act like her , well, today she got a message that says she got a position in VIP area , I’m so happy for her , but feel so sad , horrible about myself , u can tell , I didn’t get that kinda message , I feel terrible , I already gave up my chance to go to Guilin for a wonderful trip !!!! well , it seems to me now it’s not worthy at all !! what a idiot am I , thinking that I’m good enough to communicate with the foreignors, totally stupid !! I already wasted two days for this stupid thing , I think right now I should give up all this and go back to my beautiful Nanning city and give it a kiss , I DO REALLY NEED A HUG RIGHT NOW ‘cuz I really hurt ,at the beginning , I would make myself attend the CCTV championship ,but right now , I don’t think I have that talent to attend that huge and challenge event .if I did .i’ll just freak myself out again . goodbye , my beautiful dream , I don’t  have the talent to have u , but It doesn’t mean I do not love ya , well , I do love ya , my dream .

That’s all , I ant’ feel any better now , writing did not help !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!