My Blog
Germany
April 14, 2010
It’s so pathetic
To try to hold back tears
When you look like
An unhappy child thinking
He’s too old to cry
An unhappy adult
Is surely not that tragic
But sometimes even sadder
And you try to hold back tears
Because you are too old
to cry
And it’s so pathetic
Because they run down your cheeks
And you know it’s stupid
To hold back tears
When no one’s there to see
That you’re crying
May 8, 2009
One goddamn junkie on the rampage
Another idol of the back page
You kill yourself to stay alive
To live another daily lie
Inhale- exhale, that’s the way it works
Try another vein, makes it even worse
Hard to be a failure and to play a god
Write your holy scriptures on the shithouse walls
Fuck your own demons when no one else’s around
Mental masturbation, virtual suicide
Getting sentimental- have another line
Such a silly game making you divine
Self-revulsion, blow, feelings bruised and blue
Never mind the others: all that matter’s you
Stories of madness, stories of glee
And if you’re lieing, than make them believe
December 30, 2008
So very self-indulgent liar
You’re far too beautiful to love
A mostly ambiguous smile
And carefully plotted laugh
So very egoistic sinner
You play your vanity with pride
You got so used to being the winner
The mostly desired fuck
An oversaturated loser
Exasperated little bitch
Extremely hard, extremely lonesome
Well-trained in extremeties
I watch your face through dusk and smoke
The havy make-up, the decay
Disguised holes in your soul
And mostly I see myself