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December 27, 2011
tonight...
i never imagine that i will hear something that made me awake all night long
when all people sleep well, i stood alone in front of the computer
a warm chocolate milk, comfortable blanket, cozy bed, even soft pillow can't make my eyes close!!
those words..
those sentences...
keep repeating over and over again through my ears
i wish i could cry, but my tears already dried
i wish i could smile, but this lips are sealed
how come something that i feel must be banish in a blink of my eyes?
how come my trust can be broken into pieces?
is it true? is it real?
I'm so afraid to know the answer..
i don't have a courage to seek the truth..
i don't have any wise words to start the question..
in silence i can only look at those memories
the day i saw you, the day i met you and the day that all of this begin
at this moment i felt like i lose everything
then i saw my friend stand beside me..
smiled at me and told me, that i can make a good decision
am i really that strong?
i said i wanna cry, i wanna scream as loud as i can..
but my friend said, what is it for? something happened for a reason..
ah...
those words... something happened for a reason
now..
i think God have other plan for me
maybe what i had found it's not the one for me...
i wanna scream at you i said clearly to my friend
with laugh my friend said, until you satisfied the one you talked about wouldn't heard your scream at me
again..
i hate those sentences..
so hard, so far, so unbelievable
how can this night can turn me up side down
just like a boat in the ocean hit by the storm
only can wait until all of this pass
waiting the sentences from my friend, like waiting for the hangman to pull the rope
made all my heart wanna pop up and run
too bad the night getting dark..
the last thing i heard from my friend is
"you are the one that have all the decision, all of them will be your own heart will, choose it wisely"
agghh...
i can't make it!!
i don't have any idea with all of this!!
hold on?! let it go?!
which one?!
like a circle, i can't find any finish line
in deep dark night...
i can only sit still in silence
looking at those fake glaze, wondering when will be the right time to finish it all
getting darker...
and darker...
darker...
now what left,
only the silence in my heart and the whisper of the night wind
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December 24, 2011
no one prefer silent in their life
but sometimes, silent is the best thing
its a time where u can think more about your self
no matter how hard i try to listen
all i can hear is nothing
i just find my own self
in a pitch black room
don't wanna hurts someone else feeling
don't wanna lose what i have
don't wanna wake up from all this dreams
sometimes just don't wanna understand how fragile live can be
how easy to break the trust that made
how fast promises can be broken
how many times i tried to find light
i can't find it everywhere
no matter how hard i ignite the light
its always an useless effort
i don't know how long i will stay here
it's really annoying
wishing someone will lend me a hand to get out from this darkness
but in the end no one here
just me, the darkness and silent
no matter how crowded live are
its always me that left behind
no matter how hard and how fast i run
i never can't move on
one day
if i can find what im looking for
i will free from this room
who make me live in a cage
and can't let me fly freely to get what i want
hope when i make up my decision
will the best thing that break all this boundary in this pitch dark room
but until that time comes
maybe all i can here just silent...
cold.. dark.. and nothing else....
December 23, 2011
Something cross my mind tonight!! Thinking that live and love has the same taste like chocolate, sweet and bitter
Not like candy that taste sweet or coffee that taste bitter...
Almond, cashew, fruits, rum and milk just another ingredients to make chocolate flavorful, as same as sadness, joyful, laugh, tears, passion, anger, patient and hate that make our live colourful.
take it every flavor you got and create the new one to make your live great!!
enjoy it until the last bite make it worth, trust me !!
life only once so use it wisely
Simple, Delicious and flavorful that my live would be, How about yours??
Enjoy your live, like you enjoy your favorite chocolate everyone and have a nice night