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reza

fazilah4 — Sun, 15 Jun 2008 19:23:13 GMT

reza

congratulate for ur success to have your own car. to my pleasure i love to drive it.

abang..sayangku reza

fazilah4 — Fri, 04 Apr 2008 00:36:12 GMT

abang..sayangku reza

i'm sorry fo those bloudly nonsense last fews days. hardly in love with u. plez forgive me sayangku. i need more than anyone else. i do really love u. there no one can replace u.

u r the only one i meant to be. i love u love u so much sayangku reza.

this morning

fazilah4 — Tue, 17 Apr 2007 20:32:46 GMT

this morning

most gorgeous guy that i ever seen before

18 april 2004

i'm not sure u find out this or not...thanks for replying and i read that sms with a very good condition.

"niat mestilah disulami dengan ketakwaandan rasa rendah diri sertav ikhlas mengharapkan keredhaan ALLAH.. mestilah bijak melihat keadaan barulah niat membawa kebaikan"

sUCH a lOVEly MomeNT

fazilah4 — Tue, 17 Apr 2007 20:28:37 GMT

sUCH a lOVEly MomeNT

PSZ

MONDAY 16 APRIL

unexpexted thing..first time in my life through

i can say it was a blind date. at first i wanna lied just want to see him from far, but i cant do that thing instead i keep walking and see him. start talking and it was ebbarassing me at all. He was really gorgeous, like what my friend mention to me.

secretive

fazilah4 — Mon, 16 Apr 2007 21:15:11 GMT

secretive

assalamualaikum. i noticed that u have an examination this evening. anyway wish u all the best. maybe u will check this out and find this. actually between me and yem is nothing. i have nothing special relationship with him. last night your msg make me realize how small I'm as vicegerent to ALLAH. u are i can say good guy and very good enough to say will be a devout guy. if u put yourself to that group of hereaftersomeday u will be a great guy.

thanks dr.shema

fazilah4 — Mon, 02 Apr 2007 21:04:05 GMT

thanks dr.shema

thanks shema my very cute and sweet buddy as a chance to be friend with him

nice day!

fazilah4 — Fri, 30 Mar 2007 06:55:04 GMT

nice day!

today..huhu..with as went to somewhere and that i not my real planning for today. actually i had a microteaching class at 3 but stuck in heavy raining make us stayed there and just looking for the verity of goods and things..be frank..hehe..people some sorts of bunch of person..many kind many type and style..bought something to him..huhu..nothing much to say as really out of idea for now.

dearest secretive!

fazilah4 — Wed, 28 Mar 2007 19:55:29 GMT

dearest secretive!

29 march2007 4pm

yesterday..u keep massanging me and i wondered how could u know every single things about me? huhu..so secrative and what your best reason to let me know next semester iu will reveal yourself to me? bty i 'm still waiting until u tell me who your are and how can u know about me? u make me n confusing? i thougt that u r pure mecanical right? just guessing..

yem again~

fazilah4 — Wed, 28 Mar 2007 19:09:55 GMT

yem again~

29th march 2007 1015am

i thought that he was a nut to crack. he's going quiet. i can't never tell what he was thinking.i thought want to write my dream to a sreenplay and that will be turn into a hollywood movie. so that everyone realize how that consequence happen to me.

dear dr shema~

fazilah4 — Mon, 26 Mar 2007 21:01:29 GMT

dear dr shema~

mac 2 2007 friday

i'm gonna tell u what happen to me for last 2 weeks. give me a call. i;m waitng for u. only u can share all my joys and sorrows. please dear. felt need to see u now and tell everything that inside in my deep heart..u are most the good listener for me. thanks for comfort me. u always there when i in trouble. no matter how hard it is for u u always try to solve it even i dont hope so. thanks again my dear close buddy.

lots of love,

ila

yem!

fazilah4 — Mon, 26 Mar 2007 19:37:14 GMT

yem!

hi..huh.can hardly believe i hard some strengh to write about u here..anyway i'm so sorry.very sorry to say this. i admited earlier it as an obsestion.in the long run..its not like what u have thinking about me..as well as pysical attraction people are drawn to someone who share the same interests..many things not just that.i might enjoy someone easy going nature..any guys..gurl/guy..it can be anyone and hope so that anyone can share with..just as a friend..

dear secretive

9am..this morning..huhu..actually i really wanna know who are u..where u got my number and how could u know everything about me..why i must waiting for next sem to reveal yourself. think the silly way to find who u are ..waiting u at any place at fkm while u are in the midst in lecturing hall. its not a good idea right? waiting is suffering.

my best friend,

we are lack of communication..do something.i hate to being like childish.using ur/our professionalisme well..i knowt that will embarassing u.at least i want u to admit your mistake. its already forgiven..i not agry with you anymore. i love to be friend with u.start build the relation again..u know well who i am rite! just act like before. smile dear.

along!

fazilah4 — Mon, 26 Mar 2007 19:21:11 GMT

along!

hi there..along u read this i'm gonna say..frankly u are the most ambtious people than i know. hope to see u in kl soon. and pick me up there.miss my niece ..dirve ur rexton k.on 6 or 7..i'm not planing yet exactly..but.just think wanna going back with someone maybe..my gorgeous little brother..baem

tired!

fazilah4 — Mon, 26 Mar 2007 18:46:51 GMT

tired!

for my gorup mate rekabentuk industri i did it well and hope our presentation as good as i think..i'm finished it at 3 am that morning..still sleepy until now..all the best and perform it properly guys!

hi

fazilah4 — Wed, 21 Mar 2007 20:03:46 GMT

hi

when something goes wrong i always think positive. if i can find any little bit i can be responsible for. it automatically find it around.huh..dont know what the best word i should use to. something bad happen to me and i go for it. i can fix it hope it will not happen again. people always appreciate things when they lost it march 1st..

lini, hope u can be there for me to find out what i;m not telling u in private massage.

for those customer which are still waiting be patient.the right always on the top.i'm still hovering and if he is flake out, i'm not waiting anymore.

21 march 2007

hurm......anyway i would like to share about my self last night. my university organized convocation feasts. so i'm just hang out with my asfa she was my close friend to convo feast. lots of stall and people around and there was a small concert and celebrity there. after i finished to watch there keep going walked. i sent a massage to my new gorgeous friend. when talked with him

last night-22 march 2007

i give him a called around 12 and half. after i talked with him i cant doing nothing. i'm just sitting at my bed and start thinking about what i had done along this week.its so ridiculous to thing about it.. my sasuke only in memory now.and that memory will old and change by time went by.

23 march 2007 people are nti like intimate things. people change all the time. sometimes they are happier than the day before, or more sadder, or more troubled or more passionate or cooler. everyone get the picture. circumstances affect how we feel can impact how we respond. different people deal with different circumstances in different ways. i have managed to pick myself up even though i was very reluctant to be like that. i have moved on and he was too. perhaps now that i aware he was not my sasuke anymore. I'll find the motivation to meet with others..

my smiling friend along the dark and forgone road, when day light has faded the night are cold, when tears are sled and trouble never cease to end i find the smiling friend her face..when i go downhill and feel depressed, tried of living will all strain and stress tired of living in error of sin, i reach out my hand to my smiling friend. i thank god for the beauty nature have given the golden sun and deep blue seas, i thank God for living and for good health for poetry a little things i thank God 4 people who care for me so much, and before my prayer at night can be end i thank God for my smiling friend..ucachi thanks for massaging me for a fews last night.

freaky sorry for disturbing u..i now u r in the midst sitting for your repeat paper. hope u can perform well more than last sem.

339pm monday 26th march 2007

dear someone have trooper....please let me know what happened. i couldnt bear it if you thought badly of me. i know that u cant possibbly forgive or condone what i've done...what i'm doing, but i know that you'll understand. i've always thought that if i had the chance to explain myself to u, confide in you that you would be the one person would surely understand. you always saw me for what i was. you always knew what i thought about you. i could see it in that shy smile..

you knew that you had power over me, didn't you but i was never angry with you because of it. part of me me enjoyed the teasing i wanted to be the one u teased. it feel like i was needed anyway. it just made you more attarctive to me trooper..

he was alone and frightened of nothing. i could tell by myself way he was walking when i followed his out of the that place. not everyone i could tell that. it was too dark and he couldnt see how weak and vile i was. there was no fear in his eyes when i spoke he knew though, what was going to happen, when he saw the fear in mine.

as soon as he knew, he sturggled but he wasn't strong enough. he was less than half my size..trooper.and i just had to wait for his to fade a little. he ws straching and spitting and i couldn't looked at him. and when it was over i couldn't bear it that his face which had been so open and warm like yours now looked like something behind glass or frozen for a long time inside a bolck of ie..and i i was the one who had made it like that..

and i was hard trooper..down there..whle i was doing it and again after wards, while was hiding him. i stayed exited until the hissing in my head began to die down and the scratches on my hands started to hurt.

i was hard like i never am, even when i'm thingking aout the past. i dont want to embarrass you by talking like this but if i cant be honest with yyou about these things ten there's no point anything.i never really told you what i ws thinking when i had a chance, i'm not going to hide things now. and i will never lie to you trooper i promise u that. of course youre not the only one who knows what i really am but youre the only one who can see what's inside.i'm not making excuses, i know that i deserved nothing, but at the very least i'm being open about eveything. open and honest.he was nothing to me.the dude form that place. he was nothin tto me and i squeezed the life out of him. i'm so very sorry and i deserve what is surely coming. i hate to sk a favour, trooper, but if u see him, the guy i imagine to slap or kill will u tell him that for me?

huhuh..actually its was over in a matter o second when i wake up that morning..i just dream i can kill him instead i can forget him..for trooper i can say yes for you invitation and i'm not going to say what really emerge in your mind now..

26.3.2007 2-4am..in the morning..

upset as they forced me to say that..just take it as a challanges. Ya Allah, i your sort of weak vicegerent.

its like a little crazy..its not going as my planing at first..yah, mah and the rest my reka bentuk industri project waiting for me tonite. i'll finish that website and thatpresentation

congratulation to my dear cousin in uitm shah alam coz got a new niece which born 2 last days..hope u can be a great makngah