the little room online

I just busy all the time , the working , the eating , the sleeping ,without any kinds lf learning , even i had a lot of plan , which one i want to learn , i have bought a lot of books, they always laying on my bed room . some pens here , and notebook too , but all my attention focus on the computer, chating online, play game , watching tv, listening music,, so the time pass so quickly , i just see a film , two ours gone, just plan a small games ,  half  hours gone, i reall do not know which life is the normal , how does the other people arrange their daily life time , if they have the leisure time.

I feel sick on some parts of my body , i feel unhealth of the diet, i feel alone when i find that i do not get the things i work with ,  i am so desperation, what i am going to do , what should i do with my life, i always feel that some people get the smile on the face when they walk pass me , i see they are always feel happiness , i always get the big smil , i can not do that , i just feel that my smile just too small and unnatural , how should i do ?? anyone can give me some advice ?

I have two sister , they are twins, this time , i am just worried with their work , i hope i can help them find a work that have the weekend , have one day rest .

I hope that all things will be great soon.

in fact that is  my second blog now , for the first one, i have taken half an hour to type out my new year wish , and unforturnatly , the mistake of the web , it is lost so easily.

And forturnatly , i find out what i want to do , and what is my new year wish. Sometimes, i think the type will be a  good guide for the consider , maybe i need more time to type my idea.

 The good wish for the new year 2010:

i  hope all of my family will be good health  and have the happy mood all the time

i wish i can be a brave person now , whatever in the living or working.

i wish i could have a good family with my BF in the further, i like him very much.

I will insist to writing my thinking everyday in my blog.