power,felling of in control...do you have this?

every night,from 2000 till 2400..im alone in the bridge(wheelhouse  of the ship) with all the crew in their own cabins having their night sleep with their sweet dreams, and thousands of gross tonnage of cargo (cars and papers).i am responsible for navigating the ship...i met fishing boats,crossing ships..i have to decide what to do to avoid collision...

during that particular time..i am in control of the ship...whatever i do i must think many times coz am a 22 year old lady,45kilos,a filipina with 13 lives depends on me....

NOW...that is CONTROL...have you have one????