I totally forget

    I forget when was the last time that i looked at the mirror and told myself everything will be ok:I forget when was the last time i told myself no matter what happened,just hang in there,tomorrow is a new day: I forgot when was the last time that i am quite sure about my future,my life and my family and have a bright picture for all the things.I just totally forget.I am not myself any more.I just want to hide in a corner.But when i find out that at the same time of running away from reality,i gradually lost myself.I am not me any more,not the girl that i expect myself to be.I want to cross the wall and the time tunnel to find out the real me.My mind just went blank and i feel so depressed and lost.I have to say that my soul is struggling with the darkeness.How could i refind myself?How could i make everything better without knowing who i am.I did not get my gift from Santa Clause as i expected.I just want to cry out loudly right now.How could i fix all the mess in my life right now?If god really exist,please help one of his lost sheep refind her way and figure out who she is.I know there are ups and downs in everybody's life.I just can't find the right way to deal with the downs in my life right now.Tears have wet my eyes,i get lost in the darkness.