expressing freely

chinese spring festivel in aroung the corner. it is the time for white-collars to look for a new job oppotunity, including me. there r two main reasons which make me want to quit the present job. the first one is that i m not satisified with the salary my boss pay me. i have to do much work with little salary. second is that i hate one of my workmates. he always want to be in charge of everyone and everything. and also he likes to blame us. it seems that we r all silly and lazy in his eyes. i m really confused recently. maybe i will change for a new company after spring festivel.everyone here is struggling for living.

recently i feel a little bit sad. i don't know exactly why. i just lost interest in life. i m always confused about life. all the time i m thinking what kind of life i want to live but with no results. maybe bec it is winter now, winter makes ppl feel depressed easily. anyway i hope everything will be fine soon.

i will have an exam for a certificate next month, but i still have not prepared for it. i think i m losing my fighting will gradually. and i m always axious about that. i have wasted so much time online. i think i need to find a way to solve the problem.