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julywidiawati

Indonesia

November 7, 2009

I just made a curse and swear a lot on my YM to someone..well..that someone was my ex husband, I know this is not a good topic to write, especially for tonight.. but.. I never got high temper such as a few minutes ago. 

I know I would never forgive that man for the rest of my life, and I really really got heart ached why still I can see his pictures move all over on my facebook, (though I never approve his request..) but that asshole's exes were everywhere, and I never decline invitations from girls. And I have no time to click on their accounts and see every details.

Just a couple months ago, one of his ex, who was already on my facebook friend list (I don't even remember when did I approve her) and asked about my daughters and bla bla.. I did scammed on her profile, I saw some happy and romantic style of some pictures that woman with my ex husband, well...It wasn't surprising me...

And than a couple weeks ago, that woman sent me an email and asked me and shared about his ex.. ( well, lucky you..)and bla..bla..bla..

And than that man was talking about his right as a father and he needs to meet his daughters..meet my dead body first! When you familiar with RIGHT you gotta know about OBLIGATION, right?

.....

I'm not surprised not everything lasts, I've broken my heart so many times, I stop keeping track. Talk my self in I talk my self out I get all worked up and then I let myself down.

I tried so very hard not to loose it I came up with a million excuses I thought I thought of every possibility.

And I know someday that it'll all turn out You'll make me work so we can work to work it out and I promise you kid that I'll give so much more than I get I just haven't met you yet.

I might have to wait I'll never give up I guess it's half timing and the other half's luck. Wherever you are whenever it's right you come out of nowhere and into my life.

And I know that we can be so amazing, and baby your love is gonna change me and now I can see every possibility.

They say all's fair and in love and war but I won;t need to fight it we'll get it right and we'll be united.

 

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11:24 PM Nov 10 2009

mickee85

mickee85
Philippines

Sweet^_^ you are most welcome July, and thanks too for the friendship. I'm glad you liked my comment, it's like my heart beat so fast^_^ heheh. .....slow it down, make it stop, or else my heart is going to pop!...... hehe, xoxo!

04:42 PM Nov 09 2009

julywidiawati
Indonesia

OOO...thanks Arlene, this is the best comment I ever got, and your English is getting much more better.  I'm such a luckiest person here to got you guys as friends of mine. I'm enjoying my life Arlene, but sometimes person from the past who have always been annoying, I don't know what were they thinking of me...

 

02:47 AM Nov 09 2009

mickee85

mickee85
Philippines

You're the only one who knows everything about your life and you're the only one who has the right to decide on what do. We as your friend will always be beside you when things went wrong, remember that.

02:36 AM Nov 09 2009

mickee85

mickee85
Philippines

Hi July, OMG! I'm too late on thisEmbarassedAnyway, those persons are such a loser July and you are such a winner:) Winner in the sense that firstly, you have a two cute daughters; secondly, you did your responsibily as a mother and thirdly, you are happily living as a single mom. You are way too high than they are, that's way all they can see is your ass..hehe. They are pulling you back instead of pushing you up, all I could say is that, never look them back, just go on with your life and let things come at the right time. Have patience and don't get affected no matter what people might say to you and live in such a way that no one believe them. We love yah!

11:55 PM Nov 07 2009

julywidiawati
Indonesia

There are so many positive things that I can get from the past, and I got much more than I ever got. I know I have to forgive and forget...

11:47 PM Nov 07 2009

DaeNg

DaeNg
Thailand

SmileIn case that you just make yourself busy all the time Smileand  think of   but your pass story that good which make your happiness Smile and bad thing is the case of support your heart memorable to don't making it anymoreSmile then the past won't be interrupt you and you will able to use  it  be  benefit of you life.SmileInnocent

10:25 PM Nov 07 2009

julywidiawati
Indonesia

I'm happy with my life, because God must has a ton of good reasons for me...buttt...I don't know...that ex seems won't leave me in peace and harmony in heaven on earth.

09:22 PM Nov 07 2009

satclimb

satclimb
Iran, Islamic Republic Of

Hi. We can not just forget anything,but if bad memories often make upset me ,I certainly lose my happiness of my life. I know thats very difficult to be apathetic about some memories!

08:34 PM Nov 07 2009

julywidiawati
Indonesia

Dear Daeng..

My daughters are miracle..I don't think I can live on without them...I just wanna have my own world without interruption from the past.

08:32 PM Nov 07 2009

julywidiawati
Indonesia

Dear Satar..

Do you mean forget the memories? Could you tell me how?

05:48 PM Nov 07 2009

DaeNg

DaeNg
Thailand

SmileHi JulySmile Everything in the world nothingSmile  By naturally are empty Smile   which those who never think of about another story beside themselvesSmile so Miracle and hell its depends on our heart Smile

01:22 PM Nov 07 2009

satclimb

satclimb
Iran, Islamic Republic Of

Hi sister. I can only say,sorry. Please forget bad remembrance!