Howdy guys...

OMG...I miss my blog so much! and visiting it and reading some comments make me soooo happy... I can live without blogging here..I think. Nothing special happen in my life these days, except a bunch of my self driven projects causing sore and severe drowsiness. My mom will coming home tomorrow..what a happy feeling I have, I'm really worried about my daughters, I leave them in Bandung just with my maids, whose are I don't know how they treat my kids, I never trust someone else except mom.

My daughters becoming independent girls now, they told me that they can take their own rice from the rice cooker and they could take cold water for shower..They told them proudly, but I got upset when I heard that, where are those maids?????????????????????? My kids got cold and fever when I visited them last week, what the fuck feeling I have, please dear God, don't give me trials through my daughters and mom.

My boy friend allows me to become a full time mother for my daughters as soon as I got marry him, though I can't live without interior so he allows me as well to have my own driven projects at home. Becoming a full time mother and got independent on my own financial are my desire since a loooong long time ago...

Becoming mother and see your kids grown up are the most beautiful things ever and can't not touch and see your kids growth are the opposite, like what I'm feeling now, tears shed when I'm alone and it's the worst feeling ever!