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February 7, 2010

I miss my dad so much, there is no man besides me recently, who always standing on my side, when mom and the whole family not really support  my decision, I miss him so much! I miss when he said, " Just let her learn.."

I was not really got this feeling actually, until I heard the songs, from MLTR's album which one of friends here at my office tuning in... I love MLTR, I collected their albums from the beginning to their latest album, and I can sing all the songs.

I remembered when daddy always pick me up from my university or from my office when I was in Bandung, and I always tuned in these songs in car on our way home.

I remembered when mom never let me drive with unreasonable reasons that she had no heart to see me trapped in a traffic jam, but daddy would let me drive and sit beside me on passenger seat.  

I bet if daddy' s still alive, he would pick me up here from my office in Jakarta to Bandung every Friday, and would take my daughters here when I miss them so much! I just need calling him and saying that I wanna go home!Cry

You're all I need beside me

You're all I need to turn my world 

My manager keeps talking in front of me, before he's talking too much I better wearing my ear phones, songs from earth wind and fire "after the love is gone", and eric clapton "my father's eyes" would be perfect!


Sailing down behind the sun, waiting for my prince to come.
Praying for the healing rain to restore my soul again.
Just a toerag on the run. How did I get here? What have I done?
When will all my hopes arise?How will I know him?
When I look in my father's eyes. 
Then the light begins to shine and I hear those ancient lullabies.
And as I watch this seedling grow, feel my heart start to overflow. 

Where do I find the words to say?How do I teach him?
What do we play? Bit by bit, I've realized
That's when I need them, that's when I need my father's eyes.
Then the jagged edge appears through the distant clouds of tears.
I'm like a bridge that was washed away;
My foundations were made of clay.

As my soul slides down to die, how could I lose him?
What did I try? Bit by bit, I've realized
That he was here with me;
I looked into my father's eyes.

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11:41 PM Feb 17 2010


Really? glad that we can share..

11:07 PM Feb 17 2010



Wooow...it's same to my life. Thanks a lot 4 every single word to the writer.

09:46 PM Feb 08 2010


Hello Onion, thanks for your comment, I'm sad, but I don't really regret about everything, just like you've said, God did that for thousand of good reasons. 

09:32 PM Feb 08 2010


hello!! well, i know how you feel exactly... cause i've been there and done that too... it's really painfull, everybody keeps talking to just let it go and give some advice, bla bla bla.. but i keep saying in my heart "hey,you don't know how i feel.."

But, however, God has a reason for doing this.. 

It's sad, but it's another lesson from God to us for always take the positive side in every sadness...so don't worry be happy :) and yes i agree.. the love between parents and childs is the greatest love of all..

03:51 PM Feb 08 2010


Hi Aliyah... it is nothing to do about love itself, if I'm not mistaken the different between maybe and perhaps is that perhaps is close to 50:50 about the certain and the uncertain things, that's why I preferred perhaps than maybe.

Parents, kids, family connected by unconditional love I think...hoping find someone out there got this love.. 

04:39 AM Feb 08 2010


hi! ameen....

well! sis....the answer is perhaps yes perhaps no....I think sometimes it depends on how strong our feeling to the ones....moreover with our parents that sometimes they can feel what we feel too...n they sometimes also can feel what we feel. I think it's one of the sign of the greatness of Allah... :)

11:47 PM Feb 07 2010


Hi Aliyah..Ameen, hope my prays can help my dad up there, the answer is not Aliyah perhaps, I just believe that love between parents and kids are the greatest love of all..

11:45 PM Feb 07 2010


My Allah bless ur dad.ameen... I also miss people that usually close with me,but now they are far apart. Sometimes I wonder,will they also feel the same like what we do..will they miss us when we miss them..? OR will we can feel too when they miss us...? Jauh di mata,dekat di hati :)