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julywidiawati

Indonesia

June 10, 2010

My heart is not really in a good shape right now, as a matter of fact, it has been starting since yesterday. I try my best to improve upon my personality, but I think I have to intensify my faith that all the path that I take just because Allah, my own expression that "being single is better",  "being single is fine" keep spinning around, though I know there is no goodwill of being alone for the rest of my life. I try to throw it away.

Is it true that perhaps I got only a half of heart cause the rest have broken, I got dishearten easily, feels I'm not ready yet.

I just wanna be alone right now, hanging out with friends that can fly me away from this reality. I wanna go home, I miss my daughters and my mom so bad! I wanna see them right now, but they're too far. Seems like this week is too long, and feels not kiss and hug my daughters for ages.

I wanna go home from office early today, I need to do something for my own sake.. Innocent 

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05:54 PM Jun 10 2010

julywidiawati
Indonesia

You're right Riad, it's sound strange when you feel afraid, you feel negative when a wonderful person already on your side, in your life, sometimes I don't get it on my own, but I know this feeling won't last forever, I grateful of having him in life!

alhamdulillah 

01:44 AM Jun 10 2010

julywidiawati
Indonesia

I trust Allah..

01:40 AM Jun 10 2010

riad42

riad42
Austria

I agree with you. Sometimes we think its better not to start a relationship at all in order to avoid the pain of breaking up sometime later. Strange that we think negative when being so happy. But honest people do think this way cause honest and responsible. They want to do everything right. Dishonest people don´t really care, as long as it lasts, it lasts... Quite strange, caring only a bit can cause pain, but as well caring a lot instead of being rewarded...