My Mood Blog

i feel boring, restless today. Life is harder than you imaged.

i am unhappy now. i am worried about his job, our life so much. He has been stayed at home for ten monthes after he disembarked last year. Little income, much spending everyday. i feel anxious everyday. He said he was also very anxious every minute, but i couldn't feel his worry. 

he is not hurry to find a new job, and also missed a few chances. it makes me headache.

Yesterday,i went to "you are the one"  show with my friend. It's so tired.

We got up in 7:00, after breakfast we went to "You are the one" show. It totally costs us two hours to get there by bus and subway.

When we arrived there, it's 10 o'clok. The news on website said it started at 11 o'clock. When we arrived there, there's few people. And we waited in line. It hadn't let us in until 12 o'clock.  Two hours just wait.

It didn't allowed  us to take water or snacks. Thank god that we had breakfast at least. In the studio, the seat for audiences was a plastic stool. And it's so crowd there. The stools were placed one by one. There's no place to stretch my legs. No water, No food, it recorded almost four hours. So...tired as a audience.

Whatever, i met the compere"Fei Meng". I like this show very much as i think Fei Meng is very good. He is humous and witty.

All of the female guests maked up. And they were all beautifull. 

I need to work Tomorrow. Good night!!

Today is my birthday. Happy?No. Exciting? No. Just so so.

Acctually i am not happy. No families are by my side, and qin is also not by my side,too. Friends in beijing don't know my birthday. And also i don't want to let them know it.I want to stay with my families and qin on my birthday. Everytime when i feel not happy, i will ask myself why stay in beijing, so far away from my hometown. Just for a job? It's so funny. Just for one job, i need to work in beijign lonely, no families, no friends. Everyday is so boring, heavy trafic, crowd street, high rent, poor daily life. I know lots of people living the way like me. So there's a new name called "ant trible" to describe people from other province staying in modern city like"beijing","shanghai","shenzhen" for job or for living. I hate this social phenomenon. Why lots of graduates choose modern city to job? Why so many good companies all set up in largest cities? It's unfair.

Calm down. Don't get agitated.
Received mails from qin. He said their computer didn't work very well these days as it's too hot there. And received his sweet blessing. I like birthday cake very much. And he said the cake would be filled after he back. Today is June 13th. Today after tomorrow he will arrive in Singapore. Maybe at that time we can get in touch with each other by phone. The days waiting for him is so hard. It has past half of a year, day by day, now i still need to waiting for a month more. Everyday i view the calender many times to check how many days left . So...hard....I hope this time next month he will accompany in my side. At that time i will be very happy. Qin, please come back as soon as possible. Miss....