a boring day

i feel boring, restless today. Life is harder than you imaged.

i am unhappy now. i am worried about his job, our life so much. He has been stayed at home for ten monthes after he disembarked last year. Little income, much spending everyday. i feel anxious everyday. He said he was also very anxious every minute, but i couldn't feel his worry. 

he is not hurry to find a new job, and also missed a few chances. it makes me headache.