shafresco

I am feeling a little down at the moment...been feeling this way since yesterday.I guess sometimes in our lives,when the truth hits you in the head...you just dont know how to deal with it.For me..knowing the truth sometimes,it hurts and i wished so hard for it to change..for everything to change into something else,and not to be what it is now..i wish for so many things.But I know,no matter what..he will never see what he meant to me.He will never understand what I feel for him.
I feel like I should disappear for a moment...maybe its because I'm just too scared of what I could feel in me.I'm scared of falling too deep..I am at a position now,not knowing what to hope for next.I am happy..so happy for him but the other side of me tells me that I am sad..so sad too,knowing that I cant keep him for myself..telling me to let him go.Why is there 2 sides of everything?
His words..they keep playing in my mind and everytime I hear it,it pricked my heart so deeply..it hurts...but I cant bring myself to say it all out.I cant..I dont know how to.I wish so hard that he would know..maybe someday,he would..i dont know..
Dear God,please help me...