sixto

 Oh dang, time has flown. I still remember that early morning day; I couldn't sleep the previous night. I was too anxious; my mind had so many things to process, so it was impossible for me to fall asleep like I normally do. I guess it's not an easy thing to just leave your home and get started in a different place. There is no question it was the most difficult day I've had as far as keeping emotions in check. But I had to man up, I had to understand that it was for my benefit. That's how I looked at it and that kind of helped me smooth the situation out. 

Obviously, by leaving I was giving up so many things. I was already settled at home, had my family, friends, and yeah, she was there, as well. But I had to decide, I had to think about my future first and I thought things could be handled even though I was going to be away. I really thought things could work out. But at the same time, I knew I was taking a gamble there, it was risky. I've always said that one has to take the chance if what could be obtained is worth it. I lost a lot, but I gained twice as much. It was frustrating at time, I don't remember how many times I wanted to get things back to the way they were, but it made no sense. How could I give up when I was closer to my goal? It was still tough to see how everything I had with her vanished, but it would have been tougher to let an opportunity like the one I had, slip away. I hate trade-offs, but that's the way life is: "Something gotta give."

Everything I've been through has been stepping stones to my success. I haven't gotten to the place I want yet, but I am walking there. I don't know if things will ever be the same, but at least I know I tried my best and the direction I'm going looks promising.