lucybaby219
China
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Life is never predictable or easy to deal with. the next thing that happened might change your life, who knows.they say life is like a box of chocalate, you never know what you are gonna get.right now i'm thinking about what i'm gonna get from life. Yesterday at 9pm,my boss asked me to a meeting room and wanted to have a talk with me, from the minute i walked out of that door,i knew something bad would happen.and it really did.My boss told me i failed to get promoted this year.The thing is, i was not surprised at this result at all.i was well prepared for this moment.i thought i deserved this.i had to lie in the bed i made for myself and had no one to blame.i knew i didn't put my heart and soul in work during the past year.while my co-workers were working their ass off to meet the deadlines.i was only trying to escape from work.i've got loads of things to do on my hand but my mind was elsewhere.i have no interest in this job ,sorry.The thing is, i have other plans.i haven't focused my full attention on my work since the day i applied for my visa.i planned to immigrant,yes.the whole process might take long and i have to stay in my current company for the "background check". i didn't tell anyone at work about my immigration plan, of course, i pretended that i was working hard,just like everybody else.but i guess they could easily tell i'm not good at that. i found that i didn't fit in this business, sitting in front of the computer all day long analyzing those financial figures just drove me crazy.Then i kept telling myself that others might think the same way as i do but they put up with this to make a living.At least it's a well respected job that pays well. they say that find a job you like and you don't have to work a single day in your life, i couldn't agree more.i kind of know what i'm good at.i have a passion for language, in terms of both my mother tougn and a foreign language. i like to write and i get quite a few compliments on that.a friend of mine once say i should be a column writer. some people say they like to read what i write, i probably have a gift for that. Other than writing,i love traveling and getting to know people from different cultures and background.i enjoy talking to people and hanging out with friends.clubbing, dancing,acting,dining….you name it, i would like to do it.just don't make me dealing with those financial statements,i'm open for everything. Now my life has come to a crossroad,and i don't have a choice, i don't have much to lose at the beginning, now i really have NOTHING to lose….then i have a terrible,sinking feeling that what if it didn't work out, what if i became a jobless nobody…..i don't know what life will hand me, but i know i have to take it and be brave.i will get through the hard time , i know i could, my dream will definately come true one day, no matter how hard it takes to work it out, i will have my best try.
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