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February 3, 2011
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THE ARRIVAL AND THE DEPARTURE

The night of my arrival to Emarat made me shed tears for reasons inexplicitly known. I reckoned I was just yearning for the presence of Stan for 30 days was never enough to make up for the lost time. 4D, 3D, Cartoon network marathon, dining out, amusement parks and thumb-wrestlings… things that should have been reasons that are more than enough to relish my vacation. I should have a hang-over of what have been back in my country, but what I got is a hang-up from an unexpected and shocking content of an SMS: “The owner of this number died a week ago by car accident. I kept his mobile on to inform friends and people he might know.” The news made me shed tears even more.

That guy is a good friend of six months. That duration of time is considered pretty lengthy for an Emirati befriending a non-Muslim lady. His stance was clear: “I may not be your boyfriend, but I promise to improve your life in all ways that I can.” And he stayed true to his promise. Enumerating the help he extended me will be immaterial. I will not talk about the hundreds and the thousands; I will talk about the million of happiness he caused me when he bought that Ferrari toy car ( Who is Lovely Fabian? ) for Stan.

What made me sulk is the thought that the guy was even in-touch with me when I was in my country. My UAE number may have been unreachable for him to call (Signal is poor; roaming is on) that is why he just resorted to sending me SMS. I never had the chance to reply to any of his texts for I left UAE with zero balance in my prepaid account. Clueless of what happened to me, his last SMS was—“?”.

The guilt-feeling comes natural. How can I restart when I was not able to say good-bye? How and when can I find another good friend like him? The statement, “There are lots of fishes in the ocean” does not apply here in Emarat. So many are there, yes, but not everybody is capable of sincerely loving and caring. My arrival came seven days late as his departure went seven days early. How I wish I can condole myself.

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08:31 PM Mar 22 2011
Crisinha Brazil	Hi, lovely friend! Thank you for your sweet, sweet words, honey! As usual! You are special! I wish I could come and write you every day indeed, so pleasant it is to talk to you. And I am glad if, somehow, you say I’ve made your day a little better than the day before. It made me feel better too. And what are we in this world for, if not for this purpose, right?! Smile! I believe that more beautiful days are about to come. Best, Cris

08:31 PM Mar 22 2011

Crisinha
Brazil

Hi, lovely friend!

Thank you for your sweet, sweet words, honey! As usual!

You are special!

I wish I could come and write you every day indeed, so pleasant it is to talk to you.

And I am glad if, somehow, you say I’ve made your day a little better than the day before. It made me feel better too. And what are we in this world for, if not for this purpose, right?!

Smile!

I believe that more beautiful days are about to come.

Best,

Cris

10:45 PM Mar 11 2011
Lovely Fabian United Arab Emirates	Crissy.. Today is such a beautiful day than yesterday because of your comments.. Aww.. I can't believe I found someone like you.. I missed you, too when you were away.. I still have not erased his mobile number form my phonebook.. I have not fully accepted his untimely departure, I guess.. I still want to text him or call him... and somehow I hope that he would reply back.. Crazy thoughts by a crazy heart that never gives up.. Thanks for all your compliments.. It is nice for us to have started and go on this way.. I love exchanging thoughts with you.. You are so sensible and sweet, too.. Your fiance must be so lucky to find you.. Here's for a lifetime friendship and sisterhood! I will always be right here for you..

10:45 PM Mar 11 2011

Lovely Fabian
United Arab Emirates

Crissy..

Today is such a beautiful day than yesterday because of your comments.. Aww.. I can't believe I found someone like you.. I missed you, too when you were away..

I still have not erased his mobile number form my phonebook.. I have not fully accepted his untimely departure, I guess.. I still want to text him or call him... and somehow I hope that he would reply back.. Crazy thoughts by a crazy heart that never gives up..

Thanks for all your compliments.. It is nice for us to have started and go on this way.. I love exchanging thoughts with you.. You are so sensible and sweet, too.. Your fiance must be so lucky to find you..

Here's for a lifetime friendship and sisterhood! I will always be right here for you..

07:35 PM Mar 11 2011
Crisinha Brazil	Hi, Lovely Fabian! My condolences on the sad episode. I'm so sorry for you, honey. I'm not sure if I understood everything. You write so beautifully. I could not get exactly the reason why you think it was your fault. But, please dear, don't feel guilty. It hurts so much! When somebody we really like is gone, it really hurts!... the intensity of the pain is unbelievable... and the curse is that this very kind of pain tends to last a certain time (it looks like an eternity)... and it seems to destroy us inside. I felt like crying before the words: “How can I restart when I was not able to say good-bye?”. Oh, God! It’s so cruel. And it happens a lot. It comes to be ironic and, unfortunately, we can just “take it as it is”, as CranBerry has mentioned in his message. So, honey, try to be strong, which, for all we have written and shared here, I'm sure you are. You are so sweet. I barely know you and I have missed you already. Can you believe this? kkkk But I'm serious. I think it's because it's very pleasant to talk to such a person. I learn a lot from you. Thank God, I could come back in time to tell you that! I just wish you didn't have to go through such a painful situation. Do you follow any religion? In these hours it helps too. From the bottom of my heart, I hope you get better. And, hopefully, tomorrow will be a much more beautiful day than it was today. Best, Cris

07:35 PM Mar 11 2011

Crisinha
Brazil

Hi, Lovely Fabian!

My condolences on the sad episode.

I'm so sorry for you, honey.

I'm not sure if I understood everything. You write so beautifully. I could not get exactly the reason why you think it was your fault.

But, please dear, don't feel guilty. It hurts so much!

When somebody we really like is gone, it really hurts!... the intensity of the pain is unbelievable... and the curse is that this very kind of pain tends to last a certain time (it looks like an eternity)... and it seems to destroy us inside.

I felt like crying before the words: “How can I restart when I was not able to say good-bye?”.

Oh, God! It’s so cruel. And it happens a lot. It comes to be ironic and, unfortunately, we can just “take it as it is”, as CranBerry has mentioned in his message.

So, honey, try to be strong, which, for all we have written and shared here, I'm sure you are.

You are so sweet. I barely know you and I have missed you already. Can you believe this? kkkk But I'm serious. I think it's because it's very pleasant to talk to such a person. I learn a lot from you. Thank God, I could come back in time to tell you that!

I just wish you didn't have to go through such a painful situation.

Do you follow any religion? In these hours it helps too.

From the bottom of my heart, I hope you get better.

And, hopefully, tomorrow will be a much more beautiful day than it was today.

Best,

Cris

11:29 PM Feb 18 2011
CranBerry Russian Federation	Sometimes circumstances are beyond us and we are not able to do what we should ( plan, want to) do. But if Fate has made so, we should use all the force and take it as it is. I think, your friend wasn't angry with you and he would be really happy to see you happy.

11:29 PM Feb 18 2011