Confused..

Looking for something belongs to the past , people could feel tired .Nothing could be found cuz  all gone is not the same with the present . Just wondering how that person is and doing now . Just thinking back to a year ago when everything was so great , so exciting . Receiving a very smooth concern , my heart felt so warm , not like these days , very cold . Coldness comes from not the winter but the loneliness . Something is not necessary to think about , someone is not worthy to be hold . What did I do? It was not the fault of a wrong choice but the selfish I had . Something inside my mind is so ambiguous , hard to call the right name . Is that “ Regret”? , I’m not so sure . Is that Hope to see that person again? I’m wondering what kind of person I were and I am . No matter how  I tried to do better , even think better but it seems so hard for me to be a different one as I was .

Did we really understand each other? Did I make a big mistake ? I really don’t know . Some months next , I will leave for another place where a person is waiting for me . I will have to forget all things of these days .