The lord of my heart

I have just decided to quit my present job.

Although I have planed it very early b4,but I have tried my best to make myself stay here for long, for saving money for family,for my future travel,under this much less optimistic situation.

It is good for me to leave here, but, problems come along.

I have set a very specific plan, but this decision has messed all.

Although quiting this job doesn't mean my life would get worse,of course not.Am just little worried about my ambiguous future.

This year is a transiting one for me. I have been thinking my future and my past all the time. Pondering over my past, an urgent change need to be taken, faster better,but should not rush.

My dear friend from SG has given me very caring encouragement.This makes me more cheerful.I am lucky to have this friend. Simple word but full of caring.

Many things happen this year and will go on. Maybe is because this period is transiting time for many people.Getting marriage,changing lifestyle,finding life purpose,and so on...

Is time for me to listen to my heart, carefully, youth is not that cheap as past, so I have to treasure every minute,cherish things we have and pursuit we what we want. 

I know I still need time to balance all the changes, but gradully, it will get mature.

Up to heart.

Feeling lillte down today.

I know one thing now. That is I will never content to what I possess now.If not good,I want to be better,if it is ok,I want to better it...just one word will never change,that is ,being better.

Things are so different from what is in my mind. Confuse are as common as rainy days, so often,so annoying, but u just have nothing to deal with it except do what u are told to do.

I can't figure out what a smart person should do to make it in a smart way. But I must face it.

Something will happen sooner or later no matter u like or hate to do. This is life.

I don't like it.but I can't let these stupid things mess my life. Life has to be continued, my good mood too. Annoyment is just temporary and just a feeling outlet, I will try to keep happy,,even though I am a liitle down now.

Tomorrow is another day!I believe it!

Frankly speaking, I really do not want to use this to name my first blog passage.

But I really feel lost today. Maybe there is something affacts me, or maybe nothing . who knows?

I find myself too silent for these years. I'm regreting for that.I need to be more lively, to make more friends no matter where they come from,to share my mind more....

Recently,I watched the famous film,the lord of the ring. I never spent a whole night and half a day to watch a film lonely. But I have to say this feeling is not bad.A try is always a good thing.

Because of this big film, I kept thinking for a time. what catch hold of our hearts and make us nearer to them. Maybe something like belief,or something we are pursuiting.Or something we may not yet find out.

I always talk without a single topic.This makes me upset.Maybe it is because I had a lot to say in the past while I did not let it go out of my mouth.Anyway,I should not be so anymore.I need to be more lively.Yes.I must be.

So that's why I'm here. I hope to be friends with you.