Hamsters in my brain
Poland
August 17, 2010
In a timeless space
There's the place
It's a lifless town
Of ghosts wandering around
I've been there before
Looking for something more
There I was drenched
In the rain, I thougt I was saved
But found nothing there
Except Angel in despair
He couldn't find in humans good
Then I understood
I'm not alone
Not on my own
When we found light
Only red tear fell to the ground
August 17, 2010
And even left alone one day
Ain't gonna change, it's not my world
Before me there's a road I know
The one I chose myself to go
Yeah, perfect forever, always clever
Should I be and I should feel
Super cool but then I am a fool
But then it's not me
And even left alone one day
Ain't gonna change, it's not my world
Before me there's a road I know
The one I chose myself to go
See, I like the evenings
Like to get hidden for quite some time
And yet, I like against my nature with ostentation
To stay alone, climb to a tree top
And keep looking skyward
No sensation, but I know that right here
For another time
Can't be who I wanna be
And even left alone one day
Ain't gonna change, it's not my world
Before me there's a road I know
The one I chose myself to go
Nights, some nights I awake to
Go out though I hate to
Look at this chemical world
Smelling like grayness, like paper love sadness
With you and me and someone else
Don't know who, wants to be
For several years
With obsession and with ostentation
Left alone a while I've seen that guy
And even left alone one day
Ain't gonna change, it's not my world
Before me there's a road I know
The one I chose myself to go
August 16, 2010
Have you ever had a feeling that you don't have your place, and you just don't belonge?
Did you ever wanted to run away and leave everything behind?
They say that escape is not a solution. But what if you can't find any other way? And You're just chockeing from bounds that restrain you without a chance to get free. And that conviction, that nothing better happends in your life that makes you wanna scream. Isn't it enaug to make you want to turn it upside down, to change everything you were up till this moment?
There are times that even though you're holding on, knowing that you'll survive is not enaugh. You want to make a change even though you know that You by yourself can't do anything about it.
Sometimes that makes me sick.
"When you can't sleep at night
don't do anything
close your eyes and start to dream
that in the morning from this world won't last even leave
With yourself burn the streets
start to tear and scream
soon I'll forgive you this anger
On all four sides this world fucked up (...)"
