I sometimes think that Evil loves me more than Allah.. Becoz to catch Allah is so difficult.. It seems like He is running from me always.. But Evil is always with me, when being angry, sad, hate.. Evil never leave me….. Being good is sometimes so boring, and makes me suffer. __ Allah used to love me before.. He always replied my prays. Never leave me when i want something from him.. But now,, really running away.. Never answer me, never do my wishes, Yesterday i cried more than 6 hours. I had a so hurting pain in my mind. and still my eyes are terrible bad. I force myself too much to open them. But He never come near me and make me feel good. Anyway… Not important i still love him :) __ Yes i agree, Evil is the proof of Allah,,, Proof of that He doesn't like me.
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