“曾经沧海难为水”

Though I transitory lived with you together, that was memorable for me, when you led along my hand in my campus which I had studied in before, you introduced your studying status, at that time ,you said why we did not meet each other early, you had even described our love as the song  love is too late song, the feeling was so sweet…In spit of your words are true or false, I was used to. Even if I’m not sure that I sill can get in love or not this time. In fact the dream I had held ever was so beautiful for me that dear, it was really worth to yearn, I really want to come back there and review an old dream, I do not know whether the feeling is as same as before or not, but my love would leave, so what can I do or how shall I do for you? Even if I feel that I fell in love as same as you love. Even if I thought that it was just me understand you only…. When you always fall down and blood, no one pull your hand and help you stand up, then understood it was really too pain.

I always think that I am a handsome man, a lot of things can be taken up or put them down, but I have to accept that I can’t except for the reins, I can not be degage. Though we said that we would become brothers each other, and although I try my best to forget that we had ever love with you and don’t contact with you, I had an unintelligible good feeling after I contacted with you sometimes. After that, I need some time again to fade from my memory and let me renew normal. My friends said you would pay out to get a little bit happiness of love. I saddened compulsively and wondered it was happy to me, why? Now all seem numb more or unimportant for me, maybe it became a habit when sadness underwent for a long time…

I ever felt that my lost emotion would be back, and thought that I should get true love this time, so I held charmed feeling and thought that I must be careful to deal in this reins, I thought that was ok if we were both happy in our two worlds, felt that I should get true love when I pay sincerely, I even wanted to get married when I feel a little bit nice. Perhaps it was not a good satisfaction in life to combine a small family and live in the way which we wish to live. In fact, I did not know it was right or wrong, I just hazy felt that I would get love.