what left tonight

i can't sleep again..

almost every night i have to stay awake without reason..

every time i look at the clock on the wall

i noticed that every second that pass only make me sink deeper to my own mind

a cup of coffee and music, stayed next to me tonight

while my fingers easily push the keyboard, typing letter into sentence..

what do i want to write tonight?

i have no clue..

i just let my fingers fingers type everything freely

across my mind to write about friendship, love, daily live..

a lot of idea mixed up and wanna get out my mind

but i don't have the right words to express it

and  then my fingers choose to express my feeling

about losing the half of my breath...

about feeling that always there for me..

for tonight...

i never thought a cup of coffee and music will be my best friend

never thought i had the courage to make up my mind

it's hard but i think i can hold on

i think i can see that glimpse of light fade away

but in the end..

that feelings still can make me really hard to breath

still made me weak inside

like someone took half of my life away

totally  unreasonable

but that's live..

and once again i have to get hurt

caught in the middle of GOD perfect plan for my live

i guess

it's time to follow the flow

letting go something that i never have

like the falling leaves from tree when the time's over

don't let tears fall down

put a smile to erase the pain

i don't care how hard it will be

i will walk straight and i'm not gonna lose to this pain

so..

this night end up with empty cup and stupid sad songs

so ironic...

time to close my eyes, and let tonight rain wash away all my pain

tomorrow will be a new day, along with the sun rise