Go for it! :)

Do you ever feel useless, a little bit bereft of self-confidence and proper goal? 

I have been feeling that way for the past few weeks. I have been ruminating deeply again and again about what line of job I should be leading and what will possibly make me most satisfied and content.

Sometimes thinking deeply makes me discouraged, even though my self-confidence is often at quite a high level. When you rack your brains on something too much, your brain tends to think very broadly and some baseless and disheartening ideas just pop up. "Oh, hey, what if I cannot succeed in the end?" "Yeah, possibly, you will fail." "God, what happens if I fail? Hell, no, I have to accomplish my goals." "Give up, your rivals are too strong." This last sentece put me on fire. It was like I had a nice slap on my face which jolted me out this big twilight zone.

Besides, people keep telling me, "So when are you starting to work?" Being exposed to the very same question for a few months after graduation, I feel truly geared up to set my mind on a definite goal and go for it. I feel pretty self-assertive again and keep aiming for higher. Maybe it is not going to be an easy ride, but as far as I know the destination, I will keep going.

MESS *-*