xiaomaomusic
United States
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Hmmm.
You ask a good question.
It might help when you are with a group of people to gently remind them that, yes, you speak English, but it is hard to follow a conversation in a group.
So ask them to speak up, position yourself so you can watch their mouth move, don’t be shy to ask someone to repeat something. Or find someone sympathetic in the group, and you can ask them for a bit of a recap, or ask them questions about what was said.
How to become a native speaker? Well, the answer is sort of that you can only be “native” in one language, and yours might be in Cantonese (or Mandarin?).
So, you can become a damn good English speaker, but you might be setting yourself up for frustration to try to make yourself perfect.
Plus, you probably use English with more care and respect than native speakers. Errors committed by native speakers are pretty atrocious!
I would play to your strengths. Find something you love. And then go out and immerse yourself in it – read fiction and non-fiction books, articles, etc. about it, get yourself to events, etc.
I think the key to finding the beauty in the language might be in reading poetry. If you can work with some poems (take a class, go to poetry readings, read and talk about them with literature loving folks), that might be a way to open your mind up to creative uses of English.
Good luck on your quest! Find the sympathetic people around you.
You might want to try to find some students who are interested in Asian Studies… as they will have a cultural understanding and interest in your background, and you can sort of help each other out. : )
-Holly (former Asian Studies major!)
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