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Nighty

Nighty

China

November 26, 2008

As you know, I´m actually a Austrian. I mean, I have an Austrian pass and I can speak german and I´m living in Vienna. I´m going to school here and my friends are here and my family is here... everything I love is here. 

On the other side, I would never be an Austrian. I´m a chinese girl and I also have great memories of my childhood in China, Jinan. I lived in Shanghai and I also have an apartment there. I can speak/write chinese and the most important thing is- I look like a chinese. Of course, my parents are chinese too...

So who am I ? I cann´t really tell... 

It´s also very comfusing for me, because the traditions and culture are so different. Sometimes I don´t really know what´s right and what´s wrong. Of course I have my own rules of doing things, but that´s not what I´m talking about. It´s the society in which I don´t really fit in. Or maybe I don´t really fit in the society??

It´s also hard to think about my future. Do I really want to stay here? Or should I go back? maybe I can also go to a new country like USA or England, in which I can start a new life again... It´s so much trouble and a lot of work...

If I close my eyes and ask myself who I´m and what I want, I cann´t answer because I have no idea. 

 

jaja... that´s my life... complicated as always :S

 

Nighty >.<

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