Another Step

The wind blows gently

In the hot sunny day

I am sitting lazily

Having no idea what to do

Wanting to throw my mind

Into the hot storm

So that I can have a break

And forget the hectic moment

Don’t want to see

Nor meet anyone

Disconnecting from the mass

Intending to set myself free

And releasing it

From what I’ve been suffering for long time

Tossing that boring nights and days away

Don’t want to care of anything

Just let me spend the happy moment for awhile

Stop thinking, searching for

Something else outside my mind

When I am alone

Stop thinking of somebody else

Then I can see the beautiful bright sky

Green sweet grass in that clear corner

When I stop….

Stop worrying about the busy period

Then I can see the beauty

Of the world

That I have overlooked

Getting tired of working

And the lonely time

Feeling depressed from the past

That still sticks in my head

I want to let my mind go

Into that hot storm

So that I can take a rest

I don't want to mention about love because it can cause me cry.I've never been good luck in love , i don't know why.Some come to paint my life in a short while then walk away.It happens times by times.I truely believe i get used to it.

However , i am not a big of stone so i can feel it again.No , it's not a very pleasant feeling but a miserable one.

At the empty room , 8.45 PM .....

" Do you love him , don't you?" , asked he.

" WHY?" " Do you ask me for what?" , responsed I.

" Because you said you loved him and i badly want to let you know i love her" , continued he.

" All right , it's good for you.I am so happy to know that.At least you will not be lonely and of course i do not have to worry about you" , coldly said I.

Leaving him behind the door , of course i was sad.But i have been waiting for this revealed truth for a half year.And he told me.

I feel dull again.However , i will not do anything even move from the chair.Just let things go as it should be.It's not worth to pull him back.Finally , you will not get anything : his body and soul.

That's right.Please welcome to this new condition of your life : you are free tonight like a hawk is flying in the dark large sky , watching them (two) out there quietly.Meanwhile , i am in peace.Really , i am.

Living my life for tomorrow , YES , for tomorrow NOT for YOU , dear.

Nitta_Sao ;)

"Hello" , perhaps it's the best proper word i should say in this very first entry for i am new for Englishbaby.com. Accidentally , i've found this cyber community while randomly seraching for a website to self-study.

After exploring EBB for a big while , THANK GOD , what a good day today.No doubt , i cosider it a good website for any non-native English speaker.If it's possible , i will daily come to update about my plain life.

That's enough for this entry.

Nittaya